Waiting for Yesterday . . .

Radiotherapy & Chemotherapy

2012-01-25T16:50:00.001+08:00

Salam.

So on 13/2/2012, I will begin my daily radiotherapy treatment. Still can't imagine how's life going to be after this. And yes, daily, from Monday to Friday I have to go for radiotherapy. Imagine how much the cost is going to be.

And then, there's chemotherapy. But it's not daily only weekly. So once a week, before radiotherapy I have to go for the chemotherapy first. How long, I have no idea. What type, clueless also, but definitely not the pill type since my cancer is at my nose area. I will receive my first chemotherapy treatment on 16/2/2012..and I've read all the side effects..I guess that's why cancer patient is associated with bald hair :D

But my doctor already told me that, as soon I began my radiotherapy, my saliva glands will be permanently damaged. That's mean 24 hour of oral hygiene and about 5-6 years of avoiding any dental appointment. However they already arranged for fluorite treatment for every 3 month to avoid any problem with my teeth..and I just had my first fluorite treatment this month.

Anyway, last Chinese New Year went back to Tumpat, to Mok Long's house. Had a good time. My brother who's currently trying hard to gain weight actually gained 3kg from staying 4 days at Kelantan. Hahahaha. Also celebrated my 23rd birthday there..nothing special really..didn't ask for anything..well except for money!! xD

Now for the coming 4,5,6,7,8 February, have no idea where to go. So many place to go, so little time, so little money..awww

I have cancer..

2012-01-14T13:15:00.000+08:00

Salam..on January 5th, 2012 I was diagnosed with nasopharyngeal cancer. The doctor guess it was stage 2, because without the latest CT scan. After all this year, neglecting this blog, suddenly boom 2012 start with this news. Ouch~~ Hahaha

Ok....

2011-06-06T22:53:00.000+08:00

Assalam and good day!

So, for the past couple of weeks, I've been digging Glee Season 1 and 2. I'm seriously don't know what came over me. I mean, ok most of the songs they cover is great! All of them are great performers and quite frankly I don't know half the song they sing in the show. Heh.

But, I think why I like the show the most is, somehow, I can relate my own life to the storyline most of the time. I'm a sad person am I? Haha...ha..........sigh.

Well, I'm maybe down with little fantasies where I can actually hang out and talk something not just hang out. Ah, don't despair yourself. And I actually not that desperate. Maybe I'll need to improve myself first before actually making these fantasies come true.

Seriously, what is going on with me? Writing about fantasies while watching a musical tv series. Oh Em Gee!! x(

My current ultimate wish!

2011-05-28T12:17:00.000+08:00

I believe a picture worth a thousand words. But allow me to explain it to you. After customizing every specification to the desired one, the cost is only RM15,624.00

Is it business or laziness?

2011-05-24T15:28:00.000+08:00

Assalam and good day!

Well, the weather have been unusually hot for the past weeks, hopefully everyone is in their best condition.

If you didn't know yet, I;ve started working for Stamford College PJ, and this is my 3rd month. Not going to comment anything on this college, just let it roll, let it roll.

Life have been the usual. Although the house have become unusually packed. Sometime it kills me deep inside! Because privacy is out of the question now! I just wish I have the money to afford a lot bigger and nicer home for my parents. Sigh. I'm sure they do not like the current situation too.

Money, money, money. Sigh.

So many heart to consider, but none consider your heart. Fact of life? For majority of us, it is.

A Mug of Hot Chocolate..

2011-04-07T11:17:00.000+08:00

Assalam and good day! Last night went to Starbuck 3 2 Square, Petaling Jaya to meet Bala..It's been forever since last I've been to any Starbuck outlet. However I did not have any coffee for the fear of its caffeine power! I did however have this..

Starbuck Signature Hot Chocolate

Actually, Bala went there to study but when I came, study session turn into chatting session. Hahaha!! But I left early ~~to continue browsing Facebook at home~~to sleep since it's working day. But it is nice to go there once in a while..The ambiance is peaceful enough for you to relax, have a cup of coffee and read a book~~and doze off~~.

But seriously, that hot chocolate was delicious! Just see my smilling eyes!!

You don't think my eyes were smilling? Whatever! They always look that ok! *sudden emo*

Weekend Getaway..

2011-04-06T11:55:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum! I hope everyone is in excellent condition! Last weekend, 25 of us went to Felda Sungai Klah at Sungkai, Perak for a weekend getaway. About 2 hour drive from KL into the Felda, I think? The main attraction there is the Sungai Klah Hot Spring or in malay, Taman Rekreasi Air Panas (TRAP) Sungai Klah.

A suitable family gateway I might say, with the mountain water pool and of course the hot springs. But there, we stay at the home stay at the village, not the resort. It was fun and everything, but it's super hot during the day and super cold during the night! And of course super many durian since we went during the durian season..!! But I'm not pursuing the fun parts. Let us begin shall we?

1) The stupid (read : bloody stupid) agent promise us a big house for us, since there are 25 of us! But went we get there, she said the original house can't be ranted because the owner son came home? Wha..? Lame? I know!! And then she dump us at a small house with two room. That small house only single guys, and my parents stay, the others went to the other house, which is thankfully comfortable!

2) We paid for the agent to arrange everything, including charcoals and starting the BBQ fire. Funny, they said they deliver the charcoal but it never showed up. It turn out they deliver to our home stay owner house (which is behind the home stay) and never say a word. FML, I really need to kill somebody at that point!

3) And then we got the person who was supposed to start the BBQ fire, which he FAILED to do so. Stupid fat ass doesn't even know how to start a fire! My God! He keep pouring the oil + marjerin mixture (which we use to coat the chickens and meats during the BBQ) onto the charcoal which emitted a lot of smoke! I swear I saw some Red Indian dancing in the smoke! Plus, he act like he was so busy that night which annoy the (f)duck of our life!! He keep coming back and forth to our place. Finally he said, he was going to watch football..and Abang Izad said to him, good! Don't come back again! Haha

4) Also, there are people who are very very UNGRATEFUL of all of things he/she have! He/She doesn't even do a single (f)ducking job for the weekend getaway! In fact, only a handful of people does the job for this trip! Abang Izad & Kak Fida (survey & booking arrangement), My Mom & Dad (bought & prepare chickens & muttons, and many more for the trip), and others who I don't have any idea what they might do. But they doesn't complaint about anything so it's kinda (not) ok (too).

5) One person complaint that the chicken was sour..I was like, whaaa...? Others don't but you do? That time I was tired and sleepy and when I heard things like that, and you don't even move your ass to do a single things and you even complaint about the food, well, let just say that person deserve what she deserve. After that, she straight away went inside the house with sour face(effect from eating "sour" chicken I suppose?). And according to the others who watched her taking the food, she took a lot of variety of dishes and jumble everything together. No wonder her chicken tasted weird..tch, people like that really spoil the mood!

I think this is everything? Felda Sungai Klah is not a bad place, quite beautiful in fact. But the attitude of the people we deal with can be really annoying. I want to put this picture, as a memory for our trip :) credit to Abang Izad

Suddenly, I have a small part-time business..wah?

2011-03-31T23:09:00.000+08:00

Assalam and hi everyone!

If noticed the black Facebook badge at the right side of this blog, that's our FB page for our part-time business..a friend of mine asked if I wanted to join doing this, I agree.

So, here I am, shamelessly promoting Freelance Traveller. But seriously, we can help you to get a great deal! But of course many outer factor influence the price of flight ticket, hotel price, etc..such as holiday season..weekends..and stuff.

But for now, if you have any question don't hesitate to visit us at Facebook and don't forget to click "Like" ya! :)

You Know What..?

2011-03-30T00:31:00.002+08:00

I am going to be a stingy person from now on.

I will keep saving and collecting money!

And then I will go for a trip to anywhere I like!

And I don't care if I have to take unpaid leave!

Because I just don't!

I'm sick of everything!

Just leave me be!

Alone and free!

And then, we'll shall see.

Where would I be..

And so...

2011-03-12T10:16:00.001+08:00

I wonder and wonder,

Why does people doesn't ponder,

On all the thing that is happening to her,

Do they not heed the signs given by The Giver?

O Allah, The Most Merciful, The Most Gracious.

Our life and death is solely for YOU, and if we were destined to die,

let us die as Mukmin.

Amin ya Rabb.

Prayers and loves to the people of Japan

I Need Your Help...!!

2011-03-11T15:21:00.000+08:00

Assalammualaikum and good day to you..

My dear brothers and sisters..I need you help..

In this desperate hours..

In these time of confusion..

In these time of chaos..

In these time of uncertainties..

I shamelessly ask for your help..

Pray for me my dear brothers and sisters..!!

For I am weak against the trial that HE have given to me..

For I am too weak to resist the nafs..

For I am still unable distinguish the truth and the false..

For I am continually succumb to the satan's whisper..

I do not ask you to pray for a better life for me..

I just hope you pray that I become a better, stronger, wiser man than before.

For the Prophet S.A.W. have said :

None of you is a believer until he loves for his brother (his fellow Muslims) what he loves for himself. (Sahih Muslim)

I love my brothers and sisters because of Allah..let us pray for each other and may we become a better person than yesterday. Insha-Allah, we will find our way in this life.. :)

Open Your Eyes...

2011-03-09T22:12:00.000+08:00

Assalammualaikum...let's enjoy this advice from brother Maher...

Istiqamah..? [Final]

2011-03-08T13:26:00.001+08:00

Assalammualaikum!!

Ha, kira final entri untuk episode "Istiqamah" la ni..ahaha..

Sekarang ni sedang "sibuk" mengurangkan makan makanan yang tidak sihat dan ~~tido~~bersenam. Bukan apa, sebab ada darah tinggi yang serdehana..sebab tu kena kurangkan berat badan (tu la kau, bila da ada penyakit baru terhegeh-hegeh nak exercise kan??).

Tapi, nak kekalkan pola pemakanan & gaya hidup yang sihat ni, memang susah~~!! Tapi meh tengok ayat Quran ni..

Katakanlah (wahai Muhammad): "Sesungguhnya aku hanyalah seorang manusia seperti kamu; diwahyukan kepadaku bahawa Tuhan kamu hanyalah Tuhan yang Satu; maka hendaklah kamu tetap teguh di atas jalan yang betul lurus (yang membawa kepada mencapai keredaanNya), serta pohonlah kepadaNya mengampuni (dosa-dosa kamu yang telah lalu). Dan (ingatlah), kecelakaan besar bagi orang-orang yang mempersekutukanNya (dengan sesuatu yang lain) Surah Fusilat ayat 6

Ingat tak maksud istiqamah? Maksudnya tetap/konsisten/teguh. Jadi dalam Islam sudah dituntut oleh Allah & RasulNya untuk umat Islam untuk istiqamah! Tapi mesti la istiqamah dalam melakukan kebaikkan bukan kejahatan ye.

So, releven ke ayat ni dengan usaha untuk menguruskan badan? Eh, of course it does! Rasanya kalau badan tak sihat, boleh ke kita ni menunaikan kewajipan sebagai seorang Muslim? Yang wajib mungkin? Tapi yang sunat? Ibadah sunat yang sangat-sangat dituntut? Lepas tu, khusyuk ke kita kalau kita beribadah dengan badan yang tak sihat? Susahkan?

Jadi, sehubungan dengan ini, marilah kita sama-sama menjaga kesihatan diri. Tak kira sama ada anda kurus atau gemuk. Ahaha..kurus jangan disangka sihat, gemuk jangan disangka berpenyakit kronik. Aci tak statement ni? Huhu..apa-apa pun, kalau kita nak membuat sesuatu perkara yang baik tu, kita kena istiqamah. Baik masa beribadah, study, kerja, bersenam..dan lain lain..buatlah semua ini kerana Allah, Insya-Allah pasti Allah bersamamu.. :)

Dan, sekarang pun tuan tanah dah mula bekerja (pada 1 Mac yg lepas) sebagai seorang pembantu perpustakaan di sebuah institusi dekat rumah. Dan pastinya kesihatan tubuh badan perlu diutamakan! Ahaha. Sekarang, sedang sedaya upaya untuk makan oatmeal untuk breakfast, tengah hari makan 3 keping roti wholemeal + salad + 1 keping low fat cheese, dan dinner? Hehe, asyik berubah..segan nak tulis..tapi yang paling penting tu, makan malam la..kalau boleh makan salad + olive oil je..tapi mampu ke? Hihi..
Tapi hujung minggu, hancuss diet ni..wahahaha...sebab tu kena istiqamah wahai tuan tanah! Adoi..hehe..

Apa-apa pun, saya cadangkan artikel tentang istiqamah ni, lebih padat dan tepat pengisian tentang istiqamah. Apa pun ,tuan tanah berharap kepada sesiapa yang membaca ni, doakan tuan tanah agar sentiasa istiqamah di jalan Allah..dan semoga para pembaca turut istiqamah di jalanNya..Insya-Allah..

Istiqamah..? [part 2]

2011-02-24T13:00:00.000+08:00

"You can be the most beautiful bloom of all, only if you give yourself the chance to try the fertilizer." -Jasmin [Versus]

Assalammualaikum!! Haa..faham tak quote ni? Kalau anda faham, makan dalam ooo!! Ahaha, tapi tujuan asal bukan lah nak mengena orang, nak bagi kesedaran kepada diri sendiri saja. Jom bincang pasal quote ni ^^

Pada pandangan dan fikiran tuan tanah, quote ni memang mempunyai maksud yang mendalam, lagi-lagi sebagai seorang Islam. Kalau kita terjemah terus, ayat dia macam ni, "Anda boleh menjadi bunga yang yang paling cantik, hanya jika anda memberi peluang kepada diri sendiri untuk mencuba bajanya."

Tak ke mendalam maksudnya tu? Kalau nak diaplikasikan kepada kehidupan seharian kita, lebih kurang macam ni la :

Seorang Islam, belum tentu lagi seorang Muslim. Jadi macam mana kita nak jadi seorang Muslim? Atau kalau dalam konteks quote tu, macam mana kita nak jadi bunya yang paling cantik, paling lawa? Jawapan dah bagi kan tu? Nak jadi bunga paling lawa kena la bubuh baja, begitu juga kalau seorang Islam nak jadi seorang Muslim! Kenalah mengikut segala perintah Allah & Rasul-Nya! Sebagai seorang Muslim, tu la baja kita sebenarnya! Amal ibadat dan akhlak merupakan baja yang asas kepada kita, tapi berapa ramai yang betul-betul menjaganya..?

Betul tak apa yang ditulis atas ni? Pedih rasa, sebab tuan tanah tulis, tuan tanah kena sendiri..tapi kalau tak tulis, sampai bila nak hidup dalam denial? Tapi bukan selalu dapat a beautiful bloom kan? Sebab tu kita kena konsisten dalam membaja bunga-bunga tu!

Ulangkaji : Konsisten/tetap = istiqamah

Jadi kita kena istiqamah dalam membaja diri kita, agar diri kita terpelihara dan menjadi seorang Muslim. Tak perlu nak target jadi sempurna sebab kesempurnaan tu milik Allah S.W.T sebaliknya, target la nak jadi yang terbaik untuk Allah. Seperti quote di bawah ni :

"We'll never reach perfection because there's always room for improvement. Along the way to perfection, we'll learn to get better." - Sun [Versus]

Setuju? I know I do.

Istiqamah..? [part 1]

2011-02-22T00:48:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

Entri kali ni dalam BM, otak agak karat nak fikir ayat dlm Inggerrrish, kena cuci dengan clorox nanti =/

Berdasarkan tajuk, ada soalan yang nak tanya sebenarnya..susahkan nak istiqamah? Tapi mula-mula jom kita selami makna istiqamah

Secara amnya, istiqamah bermaksud berterusan, konsisten, atau tetap.

Jadi, soalannya mudah, susahkan untuk istiqamah? Tapi tuan tanah punya soalan takde kaitan dengan hal-hal duniawi..kalau setakat istiqamah main game, menghadap laptop, tak payah cerita pun takpe! Soalan yang lengkap ialah..

"Susahkah untuk istiqamah dalam usaha menjadi baik?"

Sekarang kita tengok definisi baik pula. Baik pada pandangan saya, ialah mengikuti segala perintah Allah. Mudah? Sebut dan tulis memang mudah, tapi nak praktikan..Allah, susahnya!!

Jadi, sekarang dah faham dengan soalan kat atas tu? Orang kata berubah tu susah..tapi bagi tuan tanah, berubah tu teramat lah senang..tapi untuk kekal dalam perubahan diri tu teramatlah susah! Itulah peranan istiqamah..setuju?

Kenapa tuan tanah kata berubah tu senang? Ahaha, tuan tanah sendiri dah berapa puluh kali azam & berubah nak jadi lebih baik la, nak buat itu la, ini la..tapi semua sekerat jalan!! Kenapa? Sebab tak konsisten, tak istiqamah dalam melakukan perubahan itu.

Jadi, nak jadi baik..boleh buat, tak pernah terlambat selagi belum mati. Tapi macam mana? Jom buat checklist macam mana nak jadi baik :

Jaga solat

itu saja. Tak percaya?

Bacalah apa yang telah diwahyukan kepadamu,yaitu Al-Kitab(Al-Quran) dan dirikanlah solat.Sesungguhnya solat itu mencegah dari(perbuatan-perbuatan) keji dan mungkar.Dan sesungguhnya mengingati Allah(solat) adalah lebih besar (keutamaannya daripada ibadat -ibadat yang lain).Dan Allah mengetahui apa yang kamu kerjakan."(Al-Ankaabut-29:45)

Ha, dah sebut dalam Quran pun. Tapi kenapa masih tak konsisten dalam usaha nak jadi baik?? Rasulullah SAW ada bagi tau..

"Sesiapa yang solatnya tidak dapat mencegah daripada melakukan perkara keji dan mungkar,tidak akan bertambah daripada Allah melainkan semakin jauh daripadanya"
(Riwayat At-Tabrani dan Ibnu Abbas)

Maksudnya, solat kita tu masih tidak sempurna..yela macam mana nak sempurna kalau bacaan tak betul, apa yang dibaca dalam solat pun kita tak faham, macam mana nak hayati apa yang kita baca tu?

Tuan tanah tak berniat nak kutuk sesiapa pun dengan entri kali ni, tapi entri ni lebih kepada peringatan diri sendiri..bukan sekali dua nak jadi baik ni, tapi akibat tak istiqamah.......

Ya Allah, berikan lah peluang padaku untuk berubah demiMu!
Ya Allah, tunjukkan lah jalan pulang kepadaMu!
Ya Allah, tabahkan lah hati ku!
Ya Allah, ampunkan segala dosa-dosa ku!
Ya Allah, aku memohan perlindunganMu!

Aku hanya hambaMu yang lemah :'(

-Bersambung-

The New 14 February!!

2011-02-11T15:09:00.002+08:00

Valentine's Day is dead...its PALESTINE DAY now!!!!

Mysterious Ticking Noise

2011-02-04T22:07:00.001+08:00

I'll let the video do the talking..Funny and creative!! Hahah

Worried, yet very proud..strange?

2011-02-02T02:21:00.001+08:00

Assalam and good day.

I'm worried for the safety of all Malaysian at Egypt even though I don't have any friends or family studying/working there.

I'm worried for the safety of all Egyptian even though I never personally know any Egyptian before..with the exception of Ustazah Zeinab Ali who teaches me Arabic at Insaniah.

I'm worried for the safety of people from other nations too.

I'm worried for the welfare of everyone at Egypt or leaving Egypt. Will the leaving one reach their destination safely? Will the Egyptian revolution succeed?

However..

I am proud with most Malaysian at Egypt. Even though the real situation is unknown to us here at home, but they always said, "don't worry, we're fine" everytime their friends or family called. Some even refuse to go home, to join in the revolution..Masya-Allah..may Allah grants them victory!

I am also proud with the Egyptian. Even though the death toll continue to rise, that doesn't stop them to continue their revolution! "No change can be made without sacrifice", how very true this saying is. The Egyptian will throw out the tyrannical Hosni Mubarak out as the Tunisian did with their tyrant! May Allah grant them a sound victory! My heart go with my brothers and sisters at Egypt..

A blood spilled from a martyr will awaken another thousand. Insya-Allah! Allahuakbar!

What would happen if..

2011-01-29T20:51:00.000+08:00

Assalam and good day. I just checked the aquarium condition and found 2 or 3 fish are not doing really well. I'm not surprise to find them dead tomorrow, or even later tonight. It's not I wish them dead but having fish dying from a mysterious cause is really frustrating!

However, in case of disease out break..I'll see what can be done though if that happen I can see dark clouds ahead..maybe its time to invest in an aquarium test kit..however that thing cost over RM100!!

Most people would against from getting this kit though, they'll say, "What for? Useless stuff! Just keep your fish properly". Yeah, like you can automatically know your aquarium nitrate, nitrite and ammonia level. Not to mention the pH/KH level..although I wouldn't have to meddle with the pH/KH level..yet.

And since I'm going with planted aquarium, most certainly need to buy the fertilizers! And that is not cheap too, that I'm sure. Furthermore with current soil I have in my aquarium (normal river sand + small gravel), its not ideal to grow most plant, but it'll work..with the help of fertilizer..*roll eyes*

The ideal soil for aquatic plant? Go to this expensive but desirable website and see for yourself..the Malaysian Aquascaping Club members highly recommend this ADA soil...haha...I'll follow their advice (in 20 years time) T_T

Freaking Cimbclicks!

2011-01-27T15:48:00.000+08:00

Assalam and a very good afternoon!

Problematic cimbclicks! The same problem for the third time! What the hell? I can't get the TAC I requested..look like I have to call the customer service, again! Luckily I don't have any fund transfer emergency or else...I seriously will call the customer service and yell my heart out! Plus, I can't even login to the site now, what the eff?? Story of my life! Haha

On another note, I've setup a small aquarium. Planning to get a betta splendens a.k.a ikan laga. Hohoho, not the RM 50+ one, just RM5 one, hehe..it will be fun, since betta are known to recognise their owner and actually very smart. I like! For now, I'm gonna let the aquarium for a day or two before adding anything.

And on the sad side, two fish died. One last night and the other this afternoon. It was a swordtail and a mickey mouse platy. I guess its true that the water quality in Klang Valley aren't suitable for *livebearer unlike the northern state. I guess, I just have to play with the big fish isn't it? Hah!

*Livebearer = is a fish that actually give birth to fully develop and swimming *fry rather than laying eggs.
*fry = the term use for baby fish.

Can you do this?

2011-01-26T16:57:00.001+08:00

First of all, before viewing this video, lower down your sound volume, especially if you're wearing headphone..

That's right, its a video of Michael Jackson performing Billie Jean live at Madison Square Garden I think, but not sure which year.
If you've watched the video, can you do what he just did? Amazing. The title "King of Pop" is made for him.
Love the moonwalk!

The Holiday Week!

2011-01-25T19:16:00.000+08:00

As salam and good day! Now, the Chinese New Year is around the corner thus one of the great traffic jam is upon us! Well, its something we all learn to live with. Speaking of holiday, I don't have any plan since the original plan is family gathering at Cameron Highland have been cancelled because the DBKL house had been booked by someone else. I couldn't contain my happiness knowing that, because going to Cameron Highland during CNY is a TERRIBLE idea. Been there during Aidiladha, still a bad idea. The traffic jam is unbelievable!

Bah, forgot about Cameron! What's important is my dad is coming back from Kelantan for a one week holiday, which mean my brother will be too, since UiTM is having an early mid semester break. The problem is we don't know what to do with that one week. Still have to consult with many people regarding that one week and plan extra carefully...

Fish Update
Now, the Angelfish is still shying away from the food, if the food sink to the bottom and near it, then only will it eat. And I'm not able to do that every single time because other fish would just take advantage of that, plus something it swim away from me. It really got me worried, but at least it doesn't lay on its side or swimming belly up .__."

Other fish is doing great, not shying away anymore, even when I put my hand inside the aquarium, sweet! Still thinking about rescaping the aquarium, and actually found the perfect plants for that project. The problem is where to find it. Found many of it online but my mom said it is expensive, RM8 per plant..while the usual plant only cost about RM1 to RM 3..

Anyway here is the online shop, feel free to look =3
---->AquaShop<----

New part of life :]

2011-01-24T00:50:00.002+08:00

As salam and hey there! It's been too long since I've updated this blog and I feel bad for that crappy commitment I had to this blog(making me thinking of committing another commitment to other things/people) Well, I just turned 22 years old last Saturday (22nd of January). And not much have changed in life...or do they? Let see..first of all, have successfully finished my diploma and graduated last October 19.

Not interested to put my graduation picture here though since its way back last year, really an old news. However, I do want to put these..

Yep, this is the new part of my life. Aquarium!! Well, it's been a month since I've started and gotta say still have so many things to learn. And one of the earliest thing I've learn in this great hobby is, (almost) everything is expensive. Well, combining the cost for a full live aquarium is expensive, not to mention maintaining it! Haha, but will give my best to this great hobby!!

Not everyone embrace this new thing of mine though. Many skeptical people around me, but my Mom have a huge interest in this and keep looking forward going to the Local Fish Shop (LFS), so does Kak Ana, Kak Mina and Abg Ezad..man its feel so good to inspire people! Hehe. Now, sharing some of the fish in that 255 litre aquarium..yes, it is big. And big is awesome.

Julii Corydoras..cute little fish!!

Sunset Gourami..had 4 but sadly 1 of them passed away last night =(

The black one is Mollies I believe, but not too sure

The flaming red one is swordtail and the yellow-ish one is Mickey Mouse Platy

The latest addition to the aquarium is this lovely Angelfish

I also have 16 zebra danio, 6 neon tetra (google for image :p) Planning to rescape the whole tank with much better plants. As the current one are all mix up or dying or sick or just plain fugly.
In total, I have 6 corydoras, 4 gourami (1 died), 6 mickey mouse platy (3 died), 6 neon tetra, 16 zebra danio, 5 swordtail, 5 mollies (1 died), and 1 Angelfish. Total fish in aquarium? 44 fish! And that is a large number! Hahaha. Well, that's all for now I guess, definitely will be back for more!

p/s : Although it's too late, but Happy New Year!

Pretty messed up..

2010-10-06T04:13:00.000+08:00

Salam and morning..the time I started to write this entry is 4.07am

I don't know what is happening to me, I can't sleep, I always want to eat, I get desperate for no reason. Maybe its the loneliness..also this could also mean, "GET A BLOODY JOB ASSHOLE". Been trying to find one but to no avail. Maybe that desperation come from the need to find a job and earn money. Maybe I'm just tired and bored with things around me, therefore strengthening the feeling to secure a job.

Well, I've been dying to for a new laptop/desktop and handphone. The one I owned currently are in conditions best not spoken..

I don't want to rant much here, although this blog is like a diary to me, but other people can read this diary therefore it is not ideal to write anything sensitive that certain somebody might read..

That's all for now..

Away for a long time, I was.

2010-09-23T19:04:00.000+08:00

Salam and evening! Man, for months(?) I've neglected this blog and I found out the stupid spam was swarming the cbox! Had them banned, reported as spam, and deleted of course, but nothing seems to keep them away, ah well.

Although I've wished everyone I know for Eid, it is no harm to wish the same here, I think? Happy Eidul Fitri to all Muslimin and Muslimat across the globe! I hope all of you have a wonderful Eid ;)

My raya was ok, though I definitely ate less than my usual raya (hooray!) and not mention we went back to kampung the brand new Proton Exora! I drove the first half of the journey and the traffic flow is not everybody best friend but it still moving and occasional breaking. But if there any common thing I heard about this year raya would be, "this year raya is boring!" and I am getting this from Facebook, talking to others and hearing from others! And I can't deny it, the mood isn't there and not to mention the stupid TV channel was swarmed with ghost story and the same movie again and again. But this year, lesser time had been spend in front of the TV. What can I say, not a fan of the local production.

I feel bad for not being able to make it to Marina birthday party. Was at kampung until her birthday so there's nothing I can do really. Also this raya is the first raya I actually made it to Mazuin's house! Finally! Hahaha! And during the last days of Ramadhan, I almost enter Akmyr's house! Almost because after finally getting passed the annoying guards and finding a parking space, his mom wasn't home, went out shopping with the neighbour and he doesn't have the house key! Hahahaha!! Man, that was a bit fish up! No matter, Insya-Allah I will get another chance for that :D

Also, before I forgot, For 3 weeks (starting from 27th of August - 12th of September) I had been indulged in playing games! Well, finally I was able to play the new computer that was immediately taken to Segamat by my brother the day it was bought! Hmm, now that I'm writing this, I think this is the reason why I have abandoned Facebook and Blogger for so long! Oh my god, I feel so ~~happy to be playing cool games on the desktop without worrying other stuff~~ bad!

Application to UiTM is open!

2010-08-18T07:35:00.000+08:00

Salam and good morning! It's been a while since I've last updated. Been busy..or not..hehehe

Anyway, yesterday (16th of August), online application to UiTM had been opened, and interested applicant should fill all the relevant forms and such before this 19th of September! You can do so at this UiTM website.

And, yes I am filling up the forms as well. Pray for me and wish me luck! For I'd kill for this admission!!

Hopefully everything goes well. Oh, I forgot to mention, this admission is for the December Intake.

p/s : Day fly so fast, especially during this Ramadhan...

Ahlan Wa Sahlan ya Ramadhan Kareem!

2010-08-10T22:24:00.000+08:00

Salam and pleasant evening! The first Tarawikh is over, but the fasting start tomorrow. May this Ramadhan give us ample opportunity to seek forgiveness and blessing from Allah, Insya-Allah :)

Have a great Ramadhan everyone!

Nice Quotes from Movies/Drama

2010-08-08T01:41:00.000+08:00

Salam and good day! Well, I'm just itching to share some of the quotes from movies or dramas that I've heard or read. So, let's start shall we?

1) Snow is a magical blanket..it hide what's ugly and make everything beautiful. - Wilhelmina Slater, Ugly Betty season 1
I love this one. I don't remember from which episode exactly but I know it's from this season. Now, there is a major meaning from this quote..what is it? Well, I'll let your creative brain to think this over..this situation happen all the time..politics, at the office, schools, life, everywhere! If you still clueless about it, ask me.

2) You know, Helen, black widows may be powerful predators, but every predator is somebody else’s prey. - Lionel Luthor, Smallville Season 3
As straight as it sound. This ought to remind you that this is how life is. You're never on top, nor you will ever be. Simple as that :)

3) If everything can be settled by the word sorry, why would then law and police exist? – Gu Jun Pyo, Boys Over Flower
Aha, quite true really. Sometime, sorry alone is not enough. You really to take some action to show that you're really really sorry, right? So, next time you apologizing, remember this! Sorry alone isn't good enough for some people! :)

4) Attachment leads to jealousy, the shadow of greed that is. - Yoda, Star Wars Episode 3
Another good one. It is true attachment leads to jealousy (look around you, don't pretend to be such an asshole) and jealousy if continue to grew, may as well become greed. Can't make sense? I'd be happy to answer your question :)

5) I trust everyone. It's the devil inside them I don't trust. - John Bridger, The Italian Job
Need to say more? Hahahaha!

I'd write more, but couldn't remember any of it.

Whew!

2010-08-03T21:24:00.000+08:00

Salam and good evening :)

Been busy enough to keep me away from the Internet :)

Ramadhan is just around the corner..I hope this Ramadhan would be better than the last for me.

So many expectation for this Ramadhan and I sincerely hope I can actually do it.

Well, we'll found out soon, ya? :D

Till then.

Finally..!

2010-07-28T18:48:00.000+08:00

Salam and good evening everyone!

Finally!! It's like a heavy burden being lift off my shoulder! Alhamdulillah! :)

Changes..everyone changes..from bad to good...from good to bad (nauzubillah), from good to excellent, from bad to worse (nauzubillah)..and it happen everyday.

Well, no point talking to a rock, as it will stay motionless and ignore you completely.

Don't need to know what is that "burden" but, believe me, it is a burden I have being carry for the longest time..and finally I have get rid of it!

I do, however, wish that "burden" stay, but what can I do? I have no legal relation with the "burden" :(

For that "burden", I wish the best for you, May Allah guide you and your family, Insya-Allah.

That's all for now ;)

Nobody can...

2010-07-27T09:35:00.000+08:00

Salam and good morning..I hope whoever is reading this is in their best condition :)

Now, nobody can change you except yourself. Sure there's always people around you who always encourage you to change. But the final decision to change is up to you.

Nobody can force changes to you. However, you should stop being negative and think what is the consequences of the change you were asked to made. Is it for the greater good? Or is it not?

Since human are not perfect (nor will we ever be), we must strive our best to follow every rules and guidance that were send to us. I'm talking about changing yourself to follow the path of Islam. If you are already walked down the path of Islam, Alhamdulillah, keep to it and continue to improve yourself.

Islam is a way of life, because it cover every single expect of our life. Sure, there are time we slips and make mistakes but it doesn't make us bad. Human forget, it is our nature. Therefore, submit yourself to Allah and ask for His forgiveness and grace. Ask Him to guide you on the right path.

Remember Rasulullah Sallahu Alaihi wa Salam once said, "The world is like a prison to the faithful but it's like a heaven for the non-faithful"

The point here is, nobody can force you to change, but once you make the change and keep to it, Insya-Allah, Allah will help you :)

Have faith in Allah my friends.

p/s : This is a reminder to myself too :D

A Confession Part II

2010-07-20T09:00:00.001+08:00

Salam and good morning :) Now for part two in my confession..hehe

31) I used to be a Korean and Japanese Drama freak but not so much anymore.

32) However, I still watch anime and loving it (again teaching myself to hate tv with no success)

33) Always sleep late at night.

34) If I'm happy for someone, I'll get too excited, in fact, much more excited than that person.

35) I can be nice as well being mean.

36) Driving around KL is one of the many thing I hate to do.

37) Always dreaming about making big bucks!

38) Have no passion for football, who win, who lose, my life still goes on.

39) Always laugh at people who uses those pyhsic or predicting application at Facebook. It's lame, stupid, not to mention sinful.

40) Always discover new thing everything I login into Facebook. Because I joined many Islamic pages that have wonderful knowledge to share ;)

41) Don't understand people who condemn other people too much but doesn't condemn his/her self first.

42) I have no idea what's the reason or the cause for number 33

43) I follow and read Naruto and Fairy Tail manga at OneManga

44) I like dark places.

45) It is my utmost believe that reality tv program are lame, stupid, and just a laughing stock.

46) I like to be apart of some society or club and get to do some project.

47) I HATE CIGARETTE!

48) Sincerely believe that 90% "Internet Business" are nothing but a bunch of spamming, lying, pathetic idiots behind a screen.

49) And I just passionately hate 90% of those people who are doing MLM business. Mostly because they are rude, stupid, have a brain size that couldn't even fill an eggcup, arrogant but most importantly, poor but struggling to show off their "wealth" and "money" from the stupid MLM.

50) I want many thing but I just keep it down..unless I really really want it..

51) But due to money issue, number 50 isn't something that I do on a daily basis..ahaha

52) I have successfully visit each of the state in Malaysia!

53) Most probably, I would never set a foot in Singapore. What's the point, if you want to shop, KL have a much wider choice, it's cheaper too and you don't have to carry your passport or renew one or make one if you want to shop at Singapore..not to mention the flight or bus fare..and then the hotel cost..food..wah, money money money!

54) Learning to hate KFC, A&W, and all the other fast food restaurant now ;)

55) I really like PS3, Xbox, that new nokia xpress music, but never really have the will to buy it, even when I have the money. Maybe I just like watching it..muahahaha

56) I always do my assignment on the last minute, but I also manage to complete most in a week after the lecturer give the assignment.

57) I wore designer shoe or clothes or pants not to show off, but that's where I were able to find my size..hahaha!!

58) I am stingy! I love money and I keep it very well but I love shopping! Thank you God that I am fat!

59) Despite number 58, I always wanted to able to walk into any shop and pick up some clothes, buy and wear it. Waah~~~

60) Still think all the Internet provider in Malaysia suck. The line is super slow here! Hello, even Thailand and Indonesia have better speed than us!

That's all for now. Take care guys.

No more Cbox! ^__^

2010-07-15T23:51:00.000+08:00

Salam and evening! Ok, no more chatbox for this blog. It have been infested by STUPID, USELESS SPAMMING THINGY. So therefore I've decided to take away the chatbox.

If you want to communicate or leave a message, just comment on any of my post..but uh, you'll need an open ID before you can do that.

So, that's all for now.

Till then, good night everyone

Allah love human who...

2010-07-15T08:00:00.006+08:00

Some Of The Human Qualities Allah, The Almighty Loves

Say (O Muhammad to mankind): "If you (really) love Allah, then follow me (i.e. accept Islamic monotheism, follow the Quran and the Sunnah), Allah will love you and forgive you your sins. And Allah is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful." Quran: 3:31

Patience:
"And Allah loves as-Sabirun (the patient)." (Quran: 3:146)

Justice and Dealing with Equity:
"Be just: that is nearer to piety; and fear Allah." (Quran: 5:8 )

Putting Trust in Allah:
"Certainly, Allah loves those who put their trust (in Him)." (Quran: 3:159)

Perfection of One's Work:
The Messenger (peace be upon him) said: "Allah loves that if one does a job he perfects it."

Rescuing:
Abu Ya ‘la Dailami and Ibn Asakir narrated: Abu Hurairah and Anas Ibn Malik said: Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him) said: "Allah loves rescuing the one who needs rescue."

Being Kind and Gentle to Others:
Baihaqani narrated: Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him) said: "Allah is kind and gentle (to others)."

Kindliness:
"Aisha narrated: The Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him) said: "Allah loves kindliness in all matters." (Bukhari)

Repentance:
"Truly, Allah loves those who turn unto him in repentance." (Quran: 2:222)

Piety:
"Verily, then Allah loves those who are al-Muttaqun (the pious)."
(Quran: 3:76)

Good-doing:
"Truly, Allah loves Al-Muhsinun (the good-doers)." (Quran: 2:195)

Body Purification:
"And Allah loves those who make themselves clean and pure [ i.e. who clean their private parts with dust (which has the properties of soap) and water from urine and stools, after answering the call of nature]." (Quran: 9:108)

Humility of the Rich:
Muslim narrated: Sa'd Ibn Abi Waqqas said: Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him) said: "Allah loves the believer who is pious and rich, but does not show off."

Belief and Work:
Al-Tabarani narrated: Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him) said: "Allah loves the slave who believes and acquires a career (or work)."

Reflection of Allah's Grace:
Al-Tirmidhi narrated: Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him) said: "Allah loves from amongst his slaves, the one who has a sense of zeal or honor."

Magnanimity:
Al-Hakim narrated: The Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him) said: "Allah is All-Generous and He loves generosity in sale, purchase and judgment."

Virtuosity:
The Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him) said: " Allah loves the slave-believer who is poor but virtuous enough to refrain from begging though he has many children." (Muslim and Ahmed)

Loftiness:
Al-Tabarani narrated: the Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him) said: "Allah loves lofty matters and superiority and hates inferior matters."

Justice:
Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him) said: "Allah loves that you be just toward your children even when kissing them." (Ibn Al-Najjar)

Strength:
Muslim narrated: Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him) said: "The strong believer is better and more loved by Allah than the weak one, but they are both good."

Love for the Sake of Allah:
Al-Tabarani, Ibn Ya'la, Ibn Hibban and Al-Hakim narrated: Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him) said: "If two men love each other for the sake of Allah, the stronger in love to his brother will be more loved by Allah."

Forgiveness:
Ibn Iday narrated: Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him) said: "Allah is All-Forgiving and He loves forgiveness."

Continuous Performance of Righteous Deeds:
Bukhari and Muslim narrated: Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him) said: "The best loved deeds to Allah are the ones that are continuous even if they are not very many."

Loving and Visiting Believers:
Malik narrated: Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him) said: "Allah said: My love is due to those who meet for My sake, visit one another and make any effort for My pleasure."

Exhortation and Advising:
Abdullah, the son of Imam Ahmed narrated: It was said: Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him) said: "The best loved slaves to Allah are those who exhort their slaves."

Love of Virtuous Deeds:
Ibn Abi Al-Dunya narrated: Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him) said: "The best loved slaves to Allah are those who are made to love virtue and loving virtuous deeds is made lovely to them."

Good Manners and Conduct:
Al-Tirmidhi narrated: Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him) said: "The best loved by me and the nearest to me on the seats on the Day of Resurrection are those who have the best manners and conduct amongst you, who are intimate, are on good terms with others and are humble, and the most hated by me and who will be on the furthest seats from me are those who are talkative and arrogant."

Love of Allah is the basis of worship that should be directed to Him alone. Any other love should be for His sake too. The real love of Allah is to do whatever He ordained and to abandon whatever He forbade, in addition to following the Prophet's Sunnah.

"One will not be a true believer unless he loves for his brother what he loves for himself." (Bukhari, Muslim, Nasa'i, Ahmed and Ibn Majah)

Imam Malik and Imam Ahmed narrated: Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him) said: "Allah said: My love is due to those who love one another for My sake."

*Taken from Against "Everybody Draw Muhammad Day" at Facebook.

Not Available

2010-07-14T20:46:00.000+08:00

Salam and good evening!

This is going to be short and ~~sweet~~ sour. Jaya 33 Coffee Bean didn't have an available position. Meaning they are fully staffed.

Ok, let's look at another job. What job? Don't know yet. Don't even have any idea where to look. I don't want to discuss with my family because it get very irritating and annoying real fast..some how..

Ok, end update of my life.

:'(

2010-07-12T16:48:00.001+08:00

Keeping my thoughts to myself

2010-07-11T14:16:00.000+08:00

Salam and good afternoon.

Have you ever went into a forum where they were discussing about something but you find that everything they discussed is seriously over the top or 100% wrong? I have. Sometime I reply but most of the time, I just keep my thought to myself.

Why? Say, in this digital world it's hard to determine the mood or the true meaning behind one's writing. It could be cynical, angry, targeting a person, or it could be honest or a normal writing. It's really hard to determine this things!

For example, in Facebook, you know there's like a million pages and groups there. And sometime I read all the comments in some of the pages. Most of the time I get annoyed really really fast by most of the comments! Why? Let me list it down :

Too much short form (super duper hard to understand)
The way how they write their comment
Rude or just plain stupid
Plastic (pretending)*

*By plastic I mean people who pretend to be nice but in reality..well..the easiest example would be an actress with no money to buy decent clothes that keep saying "Alhamdulillah", "Masya-Allah" and such.

Ok, moving on. Sometime I reply to these comments. Oh yes, I do. And Alhamdulillah people respond to it positively. Before posting that very comment, I think hard what to write. Seriously. The way you write give people clues on how you are in person. That's why I read most of the time but comment very very little, except if I ask a question or responding to one.

And in term of real life, I keep my mouth shut for most of time! Yes, people are sensitive. You can't even give them advice. Same goes to the wonderful world of Internet. But, what can we do, that's how most human are engineered..engineered by their heart without first consulting the mind.

p/s : I do start open my mouth or move my hand to types, there are going to be some annoyed or angry people around. Hahaha..

p/s2 : just keep quiet if you dislike something and think twice before you post a comment. Don't learn it the hard way.

A Confession

2010-07-10T02:26:00.001+08:00

Salam and good morning. I don't know why, but my heart urge me to write this..

1) I don't know how to use photoshop fully. Meaning I only know very limited of it's potential. I cannot exploit the software for maximum usage.

2) I don't know any programming language. Yes, I'm a IT student however at class the lecturer only teach for exams. And given an idiot brain like mine, I can read all the materials at the Internet or books and still don't understand any of it at all.

3) I'm not an excellent English speaker..I have no idea about listening though..on writing, I'm pretty much sure that I can write smoothly. Well, smooth enough for people to understand. Like now.

4) I hate crowded places. If the house if full, I get very agitated and easily annoyed. And now, my house if ALWAYS full.

5) When I go online, I only have Facebook, my blog, and emails to look. After everything is done, I'm super bored and basically just sitting in front my laptop..doing nothing.

6) Though I love reading, I must have the mood to read. It doesn't matter what book it is, I must have the mood. And the mood is being a quite and relaxing environment (which I can never found here..hehehe).

7) I sucks, big time, at maths.

8) I easily get offended by stupid jokes or out-of-this-world-stupid-jokes or something that is insignificant to mention during chatting. Whatever, it's my heart, my feeling.

9) Usually I'm easy going and such but don't make me give you the cold shoulder.

10) I'm not arrogant or anything like that. It's just I am a quite type..or shy if you may say so.

11) I hate when people talks about things they can't afford.

12) I'm teaching myself to hate TV with no success.

13) Strive my best to help people.

14) If I'm mad or annoyed, I'll sit in front of my laptop and try my (lame) skill at photoshop, or try to read the pages at Facebook like "1,000,000 People Hate Akademi Fantasia" and such. The other way is, I'd sleep.

~~15) Before I sleep, I always blast the music into my ears. And that goes with some singing too. If there's no people in the next room, the singing would go louder.~~
15) Haven't got the chance to this kind of thing anymore..plus, it's only keep me awake rather then making me sleepy.

16) I'm a lazy person.

17) I have a discomfort feeling about my house now. Think whatever you want, but I really dislike this house..

18) I always dream. A no good dreamer.

19) If someone offended me, I'll remember it for the longest time. Except for certain occasion. Then again, I'll bring that mistake up everytime he/she annoyed me again.

20) I have a mouth sharper than a sword. Beware. In digital world, my hand is my mouth.

21) Because of no.20, I keep most of my thoughts to myself.

~~22) I always think what it's like to have many friends. I have so little friends..hahaha!!~~
22) Oooooops! I think the right words would be, "I have some friends"

~~23) I always smile and get excited whenever I saw someone comment my status, or commenting back in a~~
~~wall post, even when chatting. Sad huh?~~
23) I couldn't about this anymore

24) I used to be online game freak but I stop playing because I realise how stupid and useless these "online friends" are.

25) I always loose my temper if a plan failed and swore never to plan anything ever again. And yet, I keep doing the same thing over and over again.

26) I know pleasing people is hard, but it give me the most satisfactory to curse them behind their back.

27) I have no money so you don't have to ask me to go out for an outing.

28) I'm a slow learner.

29) I hate Mcdonalds and Starbucks.

30) I always wish for a better ~~home~~..house

Well..that's all for now..I guess.

MUET Result!!

2010-07-08T16:50:00.000+08:00

Salam and good afternoon! I was wondering when the result would come out until my father told me about it yesterday. It was out today! Hahaha! But I forgot to check the website until late this afternoon but guess what, the website was down.

I kind of expecting the website to crash anyway..ahahaha!! Well, and then I forgot to check the website..until just now, when the postman deliver the mails. When out and check the mails and suddenly saw this MPM mark on an envelope!

Ok, I'm not that nervous or anything, more like excited on finding what is my result! Haha!

Ok, ok. Cut the crap out. I got Band 4 which is average user of English with some grammar error..oh well, average or not, as long I understand and able to reply in English, that's good enough for me! :D

Alhamdulillah, many thanks to Allah S.W.T.

Until then, have a great day everyone! :D

One second stop, then life goes on

2010-07-07T11:42:00.000+08:00

Salam and good afternoon! I hope whoever read this is in excellent condition. Ok, today I went to UiTM Shah Alam to send this diploma transcript and MUET exam slip to the person incharge of student admission there. However, I wasn't able to meet the person like my Father asked me because apparently they were busy with something and she was meeting someone else. But that is fine by me because I get to get out from there faster. I just leave it through the counter

However, I just drove out from the UiTM gate when somebody called, naturally I answered. Turn out to be that person I supposed to meet. She (yep, a woman) said that student from other IPT have to get CGPA 3.00 and above and only then they can offer a spot in UiTM. Then she added, if I have a working experience two years or more in the related field, then they can offer a spot too. Hahaha! What is this, a joke? During the application to the UPU, none of the IPT mention that students from other IPT have to get 3.00 and above to get admitted, except for certain courses.

Why can't they just mention it earlier? Why can't they just mention in the UPU or their website? "Students with CGPA 3.00 and above will be offer a place ~~others can dream on and waste money on printing everything~~" or "Students with relevant working experience of two years or more will be considered ~~and if you just finish your diploma, too bad!~~"

Well, that's life. It stop for one second before immediately move forward =D

I'm looking for a job right now..part-time. And I've just send my resume to Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf for the assistant manager post..don't know if they will reply or what..and I will keep looking for more job offer. However the problem now, I don't have a transport to move around. This is a major blockade if I have to work far from home or far from any LRT station..well, we'll see what the future hold for us!

Till then, have a nice day everyone!

Palestine Waving Flag

2010-07-05T09:42:00.000+08:00

Salam and good morning to all! Now, in this lovely Monday morning I would like to share a song with you. Knaan - Waving Flag. The lyric is at the bottom of the video. Read the lyric and understand why the song describe the Palestinian so accurately.

I hope to be as strong as them..

When I get older, I will be stronger

They’ll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag

When I get older, I will be stronger

They’ll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag

And then it goes back, and then it goes back

And then it goes back

Born to a throne, stronger than Rome

But Violent prone, poor people zone

But it’s my home, all I have known

Where I got grown, streets we would roam

But out of the darkness, I came the farthest

Among the hardest survival

Learn from these streets, it can be bleak

Except no defeat, surrender retreat

So we struggling, fighting to eat and

We wondering when we’ll be free

So we patiently wait, for that fateful day

It’s not far away, so for now we say

When I get older, I will be stronger

They’ll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag

And then it goes back, and then it goes back

And then it goes back

So many wars, settling scores

Bringing us promises, leaving us poor

I heard them say, love is the way

Love is the answer, that’s what they say,

But look how they treat us, make us believers

We fight their battles, then they deceive us

Try to control us, they couldn’t hold us

Cause we just move forward like Buffalo Soldiers

But we struggling, fighting to eat

And we wondering, when we’ll be free

So we patiently wait, for that faithful day

It’s not far away, but for now we say

When I get older, I will be stronger

They’ll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag

And then it goes back, and then it goes back

And then it goes back

When I get older, I will be stronger

They’ll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag

And then it goes back, and then it goes back

And then it goes back

(Ohhhh Ohhhh Ohhhhh Ohhhh)

And everybody will be singing it

(Ohhhh Ohhhh Ohhhhh Ohhhh)

And you and I will be singing it

(Ohhhh Ohhhh Ohhhhh Ohhhh)

And we all will be singing it

(Ohhh Ohh Ohh Ohh)

When I get older, I will be stronger

They’ll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag

And then it goes back, and then it goes back

And then it goes back

When I get older, I will be stronger

They’ll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag

And then it goes back, and then it goes back

And then it goes back

When I get older, when I get older

I will be stronger, just like a Waving Flag

Just like a Waving Flag, just like a Waving flag

Flag, flag, Just like a Waving Flag.

Choices in Life

2010-07-04T06:16:00.000+08:00

Salam and good morning! I'm sure everyone have to face a situation where you have to make a choice or choices in their life. It could be anything, from what clothes to wear to what car should you buy. Life is about choices.

You can choose to be whoever you want to be. The choice, after all, is in your hand. However, for every choice we make there are always consequences..be it good or bad.

Say you are hungry. Super duper damn hungry because you have no money to buy any decent meals. Suddenly, you saw a man drop his wallet. What would you do? Would you take the wallet and give back to the man? Or just take the money and leave the wallet there? The choice is in your hand. You can have a bad ending, or a good ending, it's entirely up to you. If you decided to give back the wallet, the man could give you some money as a gratitude, but if you didn't give back the wallet and spend all the money, you could, say, get a stomachache. There's no absolute answer to this scenario. God work in a mysterious way, out of the human mind reach. Have you heard this saying, "what goes around, come back around", therefore you (and I) should always remember there's a higher power to punish or reward you.

It's same when you talk or saying something. It's your mouth, your brain and other people have no absolute control on what you should say. Depending on the situation and what you've said, things could be a lot worse or better..want an example? Take Diego Maradona for example. Before the match between Germany and Argentina on 3rd July 2010, he keep insulting the Germany team during the media conference, not enough with that, he attack personally Thomas Muller, a 21 year old Germany player. He also insult the media, imagine how arrogant he is. He thought he'd broken the Germany spirit, he have succesfully angered the young Germany players. However the Germany didn't respond much They just keep practicing.

Well, to fast forward things, the Argentinian team lost to the Germany 4-0. What an insult to the Argentinian! And the wound inflicted by the match were widened and deepen thanks to Maradona previous insults to the Germany. Now he have to lick every single word he have said previously. Now, he have a choice, a choice to choose his word carefully before speaking to the world! The Germany triumph, the Argentinian lose..and I wouldn't be surprise if people boo him when he walked by.

If you still can't get the message, I'll tell you. Before making a choice, stop for a while and think the consequences! All the diplomas, degrees, masters, PhDs are useless if you can't even do this very simple thing! Bear in mind, life is about choices, and every choices have its consequences. Taking the Germany vs Argentina match as an example, don't be like Maradona who doesn't even consider the future when he talk whatever he told the reporters. Be like the Germans instead. Don't talk and just do it. See? One side make a terrible decision while the other make a smart decision. Which one you want to be?

The loser who didn't think or the smart who always think ahead? The power is in your hand.

p/s : Sorry if you didn't agree with my writing or whatever. Just my opinion. And if you find this entry have many awkward sentences pardon me because I woke up very early and can't get back to sleep thus I write this entry. Good morning again everyone.

Find My Way..

2010-07-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

Salam and evening to all! Now, I'm still finding my way in this big but small world. Should I find a job? Should I wait for the UPU appeal result? Or should I take this 3 - 6 month certificate programs offered by the government?

It's really a mess if you keep thinking about it every single minute in your life, for 24 hour! Hahahhaha! But still, I managed to stay sane! Yeah, I rock! (poyo)

By the way, I want to share this song with you lot! Hahaha! I like it!!!

Bye June..Bye Sorrow..Hello July..Hello Sadness

2010-06-30T23:53:00.002+08:00

Salam and pleasant evening to all..now, I have a story to tell. Continue reading down ok?

On a fine and beautiful morning, a young man is walking down the Life Boulevard. He could see all the activities going on there. Some people was talking happily, some was arguing, some was sad looking, some have blank expression..but he continue to walk. Suddenly, a woman stop him in his track. He ask the woman who is she and why does she stop him. And the woman answer, "I am June, and the reason I stop you is to tell you to take care of yourself and be strong". When the young man ask what does she meant, June said, "I know what you have been through, all the sorrow you've experience. I'm saying this because it's time for my yearly holiday again. I hope to see you again next year". After that, June left the young man. He bid farewell to her.

The young man continue walking when he is stop by a man. And before the young man ask, the man said, "I am Sorrow. I wanted to tell you I will be gone from now on." The young man couldn't do a thing except to smile and thanks him. But before he could walk again, Sorrow stop him and said, "Beware however, I may not be long gone..and I may change my name when we meet again." The young expression change immediately. After that Sorrow left him. And the young man staggered to the nearest bench and rest for a while.

There, he kept thinking what's June have been saying..what's Sorrow have being saying. He's particularly worry with Sorrow's warning. The warning keep replaying in his head, until he remembered words from a book he read not too long ago. The book said, "Life will go on, no matter what others throw at you. Life will go on, no matter what obstacle will block you, how large it is, how hard it is, life will go on.". And with that he is assured. Smiling, he continue walking down the Life Boulevard.

Suddenly he was greet by a familiar man. He introduce himself as July. The young man is happy to see July again and July say, "I hope we can make use all the time for the greater good! And of course, to use the time wisely as you would use you handphone credit too!" With that, July laugh and wander off, leaving the young man laughing hard too. And so, he set foward again, along the Life Boulevard.

Then he bumped into a woman. The woman have an aura of sadness so strong, it make the young man feeling blue! Then she said, "Although Sorrow have left you, I will be with you from now. And I will make your life suffer!" However the young man managed a smile and tell her, "You must be Sadness. Yes, stay all year long if you wanted to. I have no problem. Have a great day!" The young man left the shock Sadness with a smile.

He finally reaches his destination. There he rest and continue his life, and using every opportunity to the fullest! True, sadness does come often in his life, but he doesn't let that to be a blockade to his life. Even when Sadness and Sorrow team up and disturb his life, he still smile and try to do everything his best, even when people keep disappointed him. He keep his life in a positive value, and take failure as a lesson. However, his journey on Life Boulevard is not at the end yet. The boulevard is long, endless in fact. How long can he last, he keep wondering but suddenly he realise that it is better to live everyday to the fullest and plan a tiny bit for the future and remember the past as a lesson for himself.

He also hope his friend can do the same..he also hope the author can do the same..

Just another turn in this Highway of Life

2010-06-30T01:16:00.000+08:00

Salam and good afternoon. From my point of view, this UPU plea to further my study will come out negative. It's not like I'm being negative, but it's just a feeling. I do hope I'll get to further my study and I pray for it everyday. And speaking of this, most new intakes had already registered or will register later this week.

And now my parents start to bug me about getting a job, which I have to do so apparently..haha..but they also bugged me to take this certificate program offered by the government and I think that's an interesting idea because they offered some of the courses that I really love to follow. But the registration isn't open yet, already checked the website and there's nothing about the registration. Oh well, maybe tomorrow or the day after.

But for now, I'm not sure which way this Fate Express will take me along this Highway of Life. But hopefully, it will be a good place for me. Insya-Allah.

p/s : This post was delayed for 3 days because of super duper bad Internet connection...

A small birthday celebration

2010-06-25T15:18:00.000+08:00

Salam and good evening everyone. I've been trying to write this entry since yesterday morning! Anyway, last Wednesday, a small birthday celebration, dedicated to Mok Long and Kak Aida was held. A simple ceremony attended by me, my Mum, Kak Mina, Kak Aida and Mok Long and her 4 children.

Kak Mina and Kak Aida bought some food from the night market. And Mok Long cooked some too. Whew, a lot to eat for 9 people!

They look so happy just seeing the food..hahaha

The birthday cake! 1.5kg ice-cream cake from Baker's cottage

The birthday girls..from left, Mok Long and Kak Aida.

In simple words, we have a great time. The food was delicious..the cake was fabulous! Hahaha! I love ice-cream cake! Anyway, happy belated birthday Mok Long and Kak Aida! May Allah bless you and shower you with good health and fortune. Insya-Allah.

Tupai-Tupai again!

2010-06-22T09:49:00.001+08:00

Salam and a very good morning to all. Last Friday, 18th June 2010, I went back to Tupai-Tupai Restaurant & Cafe with my friends. Arrived late that night, around 8.40pm(?) I think, and I already feared the worst..but alhamdulillah, there's plenty of vacant seats that night! And without further ado, we ordered the steamboat set! And we only drink plain water that night..how saving are we..hahaha. And if you're wondering who are "we"..

THE PICTURE IS DELETED IN RESPECT FOR MY FRIEND DECISION TO WEAR HIJAB :)

"We" would be me, Adli, Mazuin, Wani, and Nik. Others can't follow since they have their own commitment. Anyway, there weren't many people that night as first thought. Nevertheless, we saw many families and such a joyful view it is :)

After the steamboat set arrived, each of us went to take the ingredients for the steamboat. They have a wide variety of ingredients..as you can see in the picture below..

But we didn't take any of the chicken wing or fish..and we pretty much take everything else! Hahaha! Oh the vegetables are fresh, as I've mention in my previous post. And that night, I ate a lot of mushrooms! Overall, we had a great night. It wasn't a bad idea to bring my friends there. Since the food is awesome, the environment is awesome. Hahaha. But the price isn't that awesome. The steamboat buffet is RM28 per person. It didn't include water so we order a jag of plain water, and refill once. Guess the price!

Hahaha, well the price for one jag of plain water at Tupai-Tupai is RM6! Yes, RM6! And we refill once, making it RM12! Wah, the RM28 become RM30.40 for everyone! Well, it's not like we're going to eat there everyday, so it's ok..for now at least. I'm still hoping to there next time, and this time with more people!

THE PICTURE IS DELETED IN RESPECT FOR MY FRIEND DECISION TO WEAR HIJAB :)

Lots of book!

2010-06-20T22:23:00.000+08:00

Salam and evening! Phew! Earlier today, have a family time at IOI Mall, playing bowling. Fun, as usual..and tiresome as usual too. The fun part stopped earlier because there's a band of jakun playing next to our lane. Seriously, how jakun can they be until every single one of them have to stand on the lane, making noise like babies. I've seen other excited people in large group too but nothing like this. But forget about them, what I really want to write about is the books I have in this house.

It actually books on Islamic teaching. And I found it really good to remind me of my duty (as a Muslim)..and because of that, I'm thinking of creating a blog dedicated to this. It is more of me copying the words from the books into the blog. A virtual reminder for me and everyone else who which to view and read it too. And Insya-Allah, I'll do it soon.

Other than that, its becoming more clear..my future that is. Most likely I'll work first and just ignore this UPU appeal. I'll work until the second intake of December..or maybe until next year..who knows. And a opening as clerk at KWSP caught my attention...

Have to appeal....

2010-06-18T17:43:00.001+08:00

Salam and evening...by 12pm today, every public university applicant (Diploma/STPM or the same level) may check their application status.

And of course I apply too. However my application didn't approved. Or in other word, my application to the public university fail. Therefore, I have to make an online appeal and print everything back and send everything back to the university!

Well, if this fail too, life will still go on. Heheheheh

And now..what is my second choice..and where....hmmmmmmm...

Mari Demonstrasi Hari-Hari!

2010-06-18T14:51:00.002+08:00

(sumber: http://genta-rasa.com/2010/06/05/mari-demonstrasi-hari-hari/)
by: Utz Pahrol Mohd Juoi.

Sekadar melihat dari sudut yang berbeza. Bukan sengaja atau saja-saja untuk mencipta kelainan, tetapi sedar bahawa setiap kita ada titik buta (blind spot) masing-masing.

Dan perbezaan bukan semestinya satu pertentangan, ia hanya satu fitrah – manusia sentiasa unik. Ya, dari dimensi inilah saya melihat demonstrasi anti-Yahudi yang begitu marak sekarang.

Sejak sama-sama solat hajat di surau untuk ahli kariah kami yang turut berada di atas kapal misi bantuan yang diserang Israel itu, saya terus berfikir. Rasa marah, kecewa tetapi terus mengharap silih berganti dalam diri, yang saya pasti turut dirasai oleh kita bersama.

Palestin bukan soal ‘mereka’ tetapi soal ‘kita’. Dan hasil berfikir itu saya tumpahkan dalam sebuah artikel yang sengaja saya imiginasikan dalam bentuk dialog. Ikutilah dialog yang saya nukilkan selepas Subuh pagi tadi :

MARI KITA DEMONSTRASI HARI-HARI!

Setelah pulang daripada demonstrasi anti-Yahudi, seorang Pak Cik berbual dengan saya sewaktu sama-sama menunggu giliran mendapat rawatan di sebuah klinik.
“Puas hati. Kami dah bakar bendera Israel. Hancur luluh dibuatnya. Gambar PM Israel pun banyak yang kami robek-robekkan. Kalaulah tidak mengenangkan undang-undang, kami dah bakar kedutaan Amerika. Tapi kami masih rasional.”
Saya mengangguk-angguk kepala sahaja.

“Tel Aviv akan bergegar minggu ini dengan demonstrasi oleh seluruh dunia Islam. Dijangka banyak lagi siri demonstrasi akan diatur minggu hadapan. Awak jangan lepas peluang.”
Saya mengangguk kepala. Mungkin kerana demam, saya banyak diam. Lagipun saya telah berjanji pada diri, dalam berinteraksi perlu menjadi pendengar.
“Eh, awak tidak ada respons langsung. Baru demam sikit… janganlah begitu. Rakyat Palestin dibom, ditembak dan disekat bekalan makanan dan keperluan. Itu lagi teruk.”

Kali ini saya senyum. Saya bersuara perlahan, “saya sokong tindakan Pak Cik dan demonstrasi menyatakan pendirian kita menentang kekejaman Yahudi.”
“Bagus. Suara saya serak melaungkan takbir semalam. Dada ni sakit-sakit sejak akhir ni.”
“Kenapa Pak Cik?”
“Rokok dik. Semuanya fasal rokok ni.”
“Pak Cik hisap rokok apa?” saya mula teruja untuk berbual.
“Masih Winston. Dah sebati sejak dulu.”
“Winston from America?” bisik saya perlahan.
Kali ini Pak Cik tu pula mengangguk-angguk.

“Sakit-sakit Pak cik pun masih kuat berdemonstrasi. Apa pandangan adik tentang demonstrasi ini?” kilasnya mengalih arah perbualan.
“Ada langkah yang lebih utama dan pertama daripada itu,” tegas saya.
“Apa dia?”
“Solat Subuh berjemaah.”

“Kita cakap bab jihad, awak bercakap bab ibadat.” Muka pak Cik itu mula memerah. Tangannya mula digenggam.
“Jihad dan ibadat tidak terpisah. Bahkan ibadat itulah yang akan membangunkan roh jihad yang sejati.”
“Kita mesti sanggup memikul senjata.”
“Betul. Tetapi kuakkan dulu selimut menutup umat yang masih tidur menjelang Subuh.”
“Saya tak faham.”

“Pak Cik, Israel mesti ditentang menurut kaedah yang menyakitkan mereka.”
“Apa yang menyakitkan mereka?”
“Mereka bimbang sekiranya bilangan orang Islam yang solat subuh berjemaah sama dengan bilangan orang Islam yang solat Jumaat! Ini diakui oleh cerdik pandai mereka sendiri.”
“Jadi?”
“Sebaik-baik ‘demonstrasi’ ialah didik umat ini bersolat Subuh secara berjemaah di surau-surau dan masjid. Solat itu hubungan kita dengan Allah. Jangan harap musuh akan kalah, kalau Allah tidak bantu kita. Lihat di Badar, lihat di Khandak, bagaimana Rasulullah saw dan sahabat akrab dengan Allah. Lihat pula Salehuddin, lihat pula Muhammad al Fateh, bagaimana teguhnya mereka menjaga solat dan ibadat-ibadat khusus yang lain.”
Hampir terlupa saya pada janji diri untuk lebih mendengar. Saya menarik nafas panjang. Kembali merenung Pak Cuik tersebut dengan senyuman.

“Awak rasa bakar bendera Israel tak perlu? Mana kemarahan awak?”
“Bakar bendera Israel boleh saja. Ayuh, bakarlah. Tetapi jangan membakar rokok Amerika dan sekutu Yahudi yang lain lebih perlu. Cukup kalau sebulan sahaja umat Islam berhenti merokok, mungkin jumlahnya sudah berjuta-juta ringgit. Dan wang yang terkumpul itu hantarkan ke misi bantuan kemanusiaan ke Gaza!”
“Awak sindir saya?”

“Pak Cik saya tidak menyindir. Kebanyakan umat Islam, termasuk saya, hanya bencikan Yahudi pada mulut sahaja tetapi pada tindakan tidak.”
“Saya dah bertindak. Saya dah demonstrasi!”
Lagi-lagi ke situ fikirnya.
“Pak Cik dalam Al Quran, Allah tegaskan orang Yahudi itu tidak akan redha selagi kita umat Islam tidak mengikut cara hidup mereka.”
“Siapa kata kita ikut cara hidup mereka?”

“Pak Cik, lihat betul-betul. Apakah masyarakat kita telah bangunkan cara hidup Islam?”
“Kita orang Islam. Cara hidup kita mesti Islam.”
“Tidak Pak Cik. Ramai umat Islam yang tidak amalkan cara hidup cara Islam.”
“Contoh?”
“Dedah aurat, pergaulan bebas, riba, judi, arak, tinggal solat, budaya hedonisme dan dualisme masih berakar umbi dalam masyarakat kita. Lihat sahaja unsur tahyul, mistik, seks bebas dan gosip yang mendominasi media-media umat Islam. Tidak ikut cara hidup Islam bererti terperangkap dengan cara hidup isme kapitalis, sosialis mahupun liberalis.”

Pak Cik itu terkejut sedikit, lantas menyampuk, “mana Yahudinya. Awak kata Yahudi, tapi yang awak sebut golongan hedonis, liberalis, kapitalis dan sosialis?”
“Ketiga-tiga isme itu sama.”
“Sama?”
“Kesemuanya dicipta oleh golongan yang sama… ZionisYahudi!”
“Jadi demonstrasi ini tidak berfaedah?”

Saya menggeleng-gelengkan kepala perlahan.
“Ada faedahnya. Tetapi ia bermusim dan agak bersifat agak artifisial. Kita perlu agenda yang konsisten dan ‘genuine’.”
“Misalnya?”
“Ajak orang Islam serius solat lima waktu dengan penghayatannya sehingga dengan solat itu mampu meninggalkan kejahatan dan kemungkaran.”
“Lagi?”
“Tinggalkan riba, judi, arak dalam kehidupan umat Islam. Wanita Islam didakwah dan ditarbiah secara berhikmah untuk menutup aurat dalam ertikkata sebenar dan tinggalkan pergaulan bebas!”
“lagi?”

“Pak Cik, cara hidup Islam itu terlalu banyak. Dengan mengamalkannya satu persatu kita boleh ‘berdemonstrasi hari-hari’ terhadap atas Yahudi. Bila kita boikot cara hidup berseronok-seronok yakni hedonisme, ertinya kita boikot cara hidup Yahudi yang disalurkan melalui dalang-dalang mereka di Holywood.”
“Idola Amerika?”
“Ya. Juga idola kita yang meniru persis mereka. Bangsa yang leka berhibur akan mudah dijajah.”

Pak Cik itu batuk-batuk.
Saya urut belakangnya.
“Dah lama Pak Cik batuk? Berhentilah atau kurangkan perlahan-lahan ya Pak Cik?” kata saya seakan-akan merayu.
“Semangat Pak Cik kuat, saya doakan Pak Cik berjaya. Amin.”
“Tak terfikir pula saya begitu jauh kita dibius oleh cara hidup musuh yang kita benci.”
“Kadang-kadang musuh ketawa melihat kemarahan kita. Bangunkan remaja kita untuk solat subuh berjemaah, Yahudi akan sakit hati. Tutup aurat remaja perempuan kita, Yahudi akan sakit hati. Tinggalkan riba, judi, arak, pergaulan bebas, insya-Allah, Yahudi akan gigit jari.”

“Tetapi kalau cara hidup kita mengikut telunjuk jari mereka, Zionis akan ketawa sekalipun berlambak-lambak bendera mereka kita dibakar. Jeritan Allah hu Akbar dalam demonstrasi itu baik, bersemangat tetapi ucapan takbir dalam solat lima waktu lebih besar maknanya. Apakah Allah akan nilai laungan Allah hu Akbar daripada umat yang tidak solat? “

“Eh, kami yang demonstrasi semua solat…”
“Bukan itu maksud saya. Tetapi seluruh umat Islam ini. Saya risau kerana ada kajian menunjukkan 80% umat Islam sudah tidak solat. Itu yang tidak solat langsung. Bayangkan pula yang solat tanpa ilmu, tanpa penghayatan dan tanpa khusyuk? Jadi berapa kerat umat ini yang benar-benar kompeten menghadapi Zionis dalam erti kata sebenar?”

Giliran Pak Cik itu tiba. Dia melangkah perlahan menuju bilik rawatan. Ditinggalkan sendirian begitu, saya lontarkan pandangan ke luar klinik. Terus merenung dan berfikir. Masih terbayang wajah pemimpin-pemimpin dan para pengikut yang ramai dalam demonstrasi seperti yang dipaparkan di dada akhbar dan di kaca televisyen. Alangkah indahnya jika demonstrasi dibuat seusai solat Subuh berjemaah dan sebelum itu didahului oleh qiamulail dan qunut nazilah?

Dan kemudian setelah selesai berdemonstrasi, para pemimpin dan ribuan pengikutnya itu terus sahaja mengamalkan cara hidup Islam dalam diri, keluarga, jabatan, unit, organisasi, masyarakat dan bahagian masing-masing. Bukan hari itu sahaja… tetapi hari-hari. Setiap hari!

Ah, bagaimana umat ini hendak disedarkan bahawa mengamalkan cara hidup Islam itulah cara penentangan yang paling dibenci oleh Yahudi? Firman Allah:
“Sekali-kali tidak redha orang Yahudi dan Nasrani sehingga kamu mengikut millah (cara hidup) mereka.”
Dan alangkah baiknya jika jeritan Allah hu Akbar, dibuktikan dengan penegakan hukum Allah dalam seluruh sistem kehidupan sekali gus ‘mengecilkan’ pandangan akal sendiri dalam menyusun dan mengatur kehidupan ini?

p/s : Saya pn mencuba sedaya upaya utk berubah. Ayuh, kita berubah! Solat berjemaah!

What? Do you think you're beautiful/hot/sexy?

2010-06-17T13:12:00.001+08:00

To all the gals and women out there, especially Muslimah, think you're beautiful/hot/sexy when you uploaded your picture with certain "hot" & "sexy" poses qualify you as sexy? No no no..how wrong can you be? EXTREMELY WRONG!

This, in million years to come, will never ever qualify you to be beautiful! Let alone "hot" and "sexy"! Instead, your picture just become targets for sex maniacs to do God know what they do with it. Disgusting! Do you like that? If you do, please seek help at the nearest mental specialist as soon as possible because you have a serious mental illness. Why would you wear clothes that were meant for your little sister? Why?!

Who in their right mind so CHEAPLY give their precious body for others to be seen? Don't be a virtual slut! If you think you're hot, sexy, beautiful when you dressed like that, think again. Sure, most guy will get attracted to you but they only see you as a SEXUAL OBJECT and NOTHING MORE. Once they get you, you're out of their life baby. Oh, deny it all you want, but deep down you know this is true. So, why continue this stupid act? Shouldn't you stop?

As for Muslimah/Muslimat out there, you know you have to cover yourself. So what's up with that whore-ish clothes? Many became mad when someone call them "whore", "cheap", "slut" but the clothes you were give a perfect impression of yourself, so go figure. And there are who cover their body, but still being called by these names. Why? Their clothes are so tight, I swear to God, most of it would burst anytime soon. How whore-ish can it get? VERRYY!!

Now this entry is going to change language into Bahasa Melayu.

Ada spesis perempuan..
Lawa memanglah lawa semulajadi..
Tapi GEDIK..
Yang part GEDIK ni, bukannya semulajadi..
Tetapi spesis ini sengaja mengGEDIKkan dirinya..
Bila berhadapan dengan kamera..

FYI..
GEDIK tu maksudnya mengada-ngada..
Annoying..
Nampak macam sengaja je...
Hendak mewar-warkan kecantikannya sendiri..
Hendak mempromosikan kejelitaannya sendiri..
Hendak mempertontonkan keseksiannya sendiri..
Kepada orang ramai..
Lelaki khususnya..

Posing tonggek la..
Posing tayang dada la..
Posing badan melentok la..
Posing manja-manja la..
Posing tunjuk comel ala awek Jepun la..

Lepas tu..
Masuk bakul angkat sendiri..
Puji dan komen diri sendiri..
Konnonnya dia memang cantik, comel dan seksi..
Kononnya ramai orang geram dengan dia..

Memang tak padan lah dengan nilai-nilai Melayu dan Islam..!
Perempuan Melayu Islam seharusnya mengekalkan..
Sifat malu..
Sifat merendah diri..
Sifat sopan-santun..

Setuju..?

Kalau anda rajin blogwalking..
Anda boleh jumpa beberapa blog awek Melayu yang suka mempromosi kecantikan diri sendiri ni..
Dalam Facebook pun ada..
Awek angkat bakul sendiri..

Taken from manis18.blogspot.com

Condolences to Marina Michelle..

2010-06-16T10:34:00.000+08:00

Salam and morning everyone..

I forgot to mention yesterday that Marina's biological father passed away on Thursday 11th June 2010. She just updated her status last Monday and I just noticed it yesterday. She's not in Malaysia currently, and according to her, their family will return in two weeks and fly straight to Bintulu.

Be strong Marina. May your father rest in peace. The nature of our life, one will go and another will take his or her place almost immediately.

The reason why

2010-06-15T18:16:00.000+08:00

Salam and good evening to all. In this entry, I'll explain the reason why I stopped writing for more than a month. Hmm, where should I begin..?

My life have been hit by a tornado for the past weeks. It put everything upside down, wrecking havoc in my life. I don't even know what I wanted at that time. I've felt so down, I couldn't do anything. I couldn't write anything. Nothing came up in my mind, it's like the buoy of ideas was washed away by the virtual storm! And to make the situation worse, I've deleted all the posts at the old blog! But, with a backup in the hard drive. You know, just in case day like this come again..hahaha.

I felt my life is empty, just like the previous blog title, "Mirror of Emptiness". Only know I realised how lame the title was. But during the "silent time" I've been reading a few blogs which inspire me to post an entry again, hence, the "welcoming back post". And I guess I felt boring writing whatever I wrote here and no one to read. But during the "silent time", I've came to realised there's no need to worry if no one is reading your blog. After all, this is like my personal dairy, keep most of my thoughts in words about my previous experience during my younger day (you are getting older by seconds). This proved to be true when I take a step into the memory lane, by reading all the old entry. I was a angry, impatience, stubborn person. Angry because most of my writing have obvious angry tone in it..the words themselves give a perfect picture of my angriness. Impatience because most of the time I could find many incomplete sentences. Stubborn because I kept thinking my view is correct and refuses to listen to others. I hope I'm a better man than I was back then.

So, I wanted to write back. And when I tried to import back my old post into the blog, it didn't respond. Tried it again couple of time before giving up. Then, I've tried to import using other blog and it worked. My conclusion, the old blog have some serious issues and it time to say goodbye. Mind you, this is a new blog, completely new, with the same address, a modified title, and Insya-Allah, a better content.

I got to admit, I was pretty shocked when this "design" command pop up when I login. It's amazing! Now blogs look a lot like a regular website. Awesome.

Till then, Salam

Dinner at Tupai-Tupai

2010-06-13T21:51:00.000+08:00

Now, Tupai-Tupai is a steamboat restaurant at Kuala Lumpur. If you translate Tupai-Tupai to English, it will become Squirrel-Squirrel (Hahahahah!). The reason we had dinner at Tupai-Tupai was a dinner party, organised by the library social body (or something like that) for the library staff and family. So that's the reason why. I had no idea where this restaurant was..until we arrived that is. And then it dawned to me, I've been through the same road many times yet I failed to notice the restaurant! I guess their theme, "Suasana rimba di Kuala Lumpur" (forest environment in Kuala Lumpur) worked because their restaurant is surrounded by trees and bushes. Making the environment quite pleasant. And making ignorant people (like me) having a hard time finding the restaurant. But, thank God we didn't have much trouble finding the restaurant. It's my first time to this restaurant, and when I walked into the restaurant I saw this very interesting sign..

Now why don't all restaurant follow this? The picture read, "Wasting food will be charged 100gm RM10" meaning for every 100gm leftover you will be charge with RM10. And mind you, this is a buffet..and one should know how people act at buffet...and it seems, well to me at least, the warning given by the restaurant is not heeded by most. People still add more food to their plate, mounting with food already..it's like a mini Everest on a plate..it's scary! Although after I saw how they ate, I took my first impression back..they must be super hungry! Or maybe they just realised the warning! Hahahaha!!! Anyway, before we ate there were some speeches from one or two person. It is after all a formal function (with a relaxed atmosphere). Here are some picture...

Around 11pm, everything have been cleaned up (and digested). As the guest slowly leaves, I checked my Facebook (through the phone) and found out South Korea won against Greece! Hahahah! A good night overall. Good food too. Since it's a buffet, it's most certainly all you can eat, with the food waste warning though...hahaha! RM28 per person, it's not too bad huh? Let's go there sometime friends! ;D

A quick update! After 2 month or more..

2010-06-12T05:59:00.001+08:00

Salam and hei there! There's so many issues and problems to be dealt with. I'll explain the reason why does this blog was deactivated or deleted for the past month.

For now, this post is just the warming post, kinda like a welcoming back post..hahaha...

Later!

Hei.. :)

2010-04-20T03:45:00.001+08:00

Salam and good morning. I have problem with sleeping at night these day. I don't know why..I doesn't sleep during the day, I don't drink coffee at night, heck I can drink a bottle of cough syrup and still doesn't sleep.

Ah, whatever. Anyway there's a new link at the "Directories" at the right side of the blog, the top one. It is called, "My Big Dream" and feel free to read it. It's actually a new page, you know since blogger have allowed creating up to 10 new page in a blog, I'm just utilizing it..hahaha..

So, that's all for now..my life is still the same, nothing new or different..oh ya, I totally forgot about my MUET exam this coming Satuday..OMG!

Another Trip in Planning!

2010-04-16T21:29:00.001+08:00

Salam and evening! Earlier today, a event or a trip to Perhentian Island have been planned. All thanks to my dear mother! For now, I'm still searching for a suitable package for us. The number of participant are estimated to be more than 15 people. Hehe, this is a trip I can't wait for. However, since we're going on the 25th of June, I guess I have to wait! The budget for a person is around RM400 and maybe more. I'm quite suprise with the price myself, apparently Perhentian is one beautiful island..or so we shall see in June..hehehe

Oh, I forgot to mention that I am not qualify to take the MEdSI exam thus my number 2 choice at the UPU is now nothing but a fantasy. Bye-bye TESL =D

Great! Thank You Very Much sarcasm

2010-04-15T13:45:00.001+08:00

Salam and afternoon. Yeah, thank you very much for telling me useless stuff when I need a solution. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you so much my dear "friends" ;)

p/s : read it in sarcasm tone

pp/s : If you want to post a comment in my blog, USE THE GODDAMN ENGLISH! Or Malay if you KNOW HOW TO WRITE IT.

ppp/s : If you're reading this in Facebook note, well I didn't wrote it using the Facebook note, instead it's from my blog! How? Discover it yourself..took me a while to discover it myself.

Like A Spark of Light During the Darkest Time of the Night!

2010-04-14T01:01:00.001+08:00

Salam and good morning everyone! I don't care if it's dark but it is another day already! Well, I've received the allowance for my work during the Kuala Lumpur International Book Fair (KLIBF) recently, a total of RM250. Wohoo, with this, I can enjoy myself at Pangkor!! I miss the jet ski and the banana boat!! Hahahah!

And urm...I don't what else to say here..my life is practically empty right now, thus suit the blog title. But it doesn't mean I like it. I hate it. I hate it so much, I would rather continue study right now.

I don't even know when the UPU result will be aired.

Ok, I just realise this..my MUET exam school and MedSI exam school is different! And the exam is on the same day! 24th of April!! Oh My God!! Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dot Dot Dot

2010-04-12T13:48:00.001+08:00

I have no idea what to write..

I have no idea what to do..

I have no idea what's wrong with the people surrounding me..

I have no idea why I'm so lazy!

I have no idea why I have no idea...

Sigh....

A make over for this baby!

2010-04-08T21:36:00.001+08:00

Salam and good evening peeps! Now, you would never (ever) found any picture of a girl in this blog that I will call baby..well..not yet (kot). And this "baby" is certainly is not a car because my car (Kancil) is at Segamat..ok, I'll stop this gibberish now..

I'm sure you'll notice the new layout for my blog (if you're new, ignore this). Why? Well, I don't like the last layout because the size of the content body (meaning the entry body) was small compare to this one.

And I especially like this new layout because there's no need to load the pre-installed graphic on the layout because there's only colours in this new one. Hehe.

Ok, got to stop, I don't even know what I'm writing actually. I'm having a headache..maybe..or not..don't know! But for sure, I'm so confuse right now!!! (w.w)"

MUET!

2010-04-06T10:11:00.001+08:00

Salam and morning!! Regarding the title, yesterday a letter from MPM (Majlis Perperiksaan Malaysia) arrived. I knew what is was the moment I saw it. It got to be the registration slip for MUET! Well, this 24th of April is my listening, writing and reading test!

Before this registration slip arrived, I constantly check at the MPM website about my registration status, and guess what came out after I key in my IC number.."No Record Found! Please ensure the IC number given is correct!"

I was, "what the hell?!?!?" my exam is just around the corner and this stupid thing said there's no record of me in there?! I was scared, very scared! But then, the postmen came and delivered the mails and the MPM latter came along with it. Phew, what a relieve. All I could say that time was, "Alhamdulillah" and now I'll be sitting form my MUET exam. I hope to get band 5 if not band 6..heheheh

And now we wait..

2010-04-05T16:17:00.002+08:00

The program didn't even happen..therefore, I delete this post. Baik delete dari buat sakit hati!

Trip to Pangkor

2010-04-04T18:39:00.001+08:00

Salam and pleasant evening everyone..

For more info, please view this note at Facebook. Thank you!

p/s : this is probably the shortest update ever!

Last Day at KLIBF + Disaster at Home

2010-03-31T06:33:00.001+08:00

Salam and very-early morning to all! I couldn't sleep tonight and I don't know why. Since I have a (very long) free time in this early morning, I'll write about the last day at KLIBF.

Well, the routine is the same. I went there with Ma and Kak Mina. First went to the Basic of Drawing Cartoon Intensive Course. Snap pictures and more pictures of unknown people and ya, Pak Lang was there with his family. And, Huda (cousin) joined that cartoon workshop. After that, went around the book fair with Ma and Kak Mina, looking for books. I went to MBBY booth not long after that though. That Sunday was quite boring, since there only a few people poke their head into the booth and actually asked questions.

The days the passed by just like that. However, a woman signed up with MBBY. Making her the only person to become MBBY member that day. Erm, I also got to say, things got pretty interesting during the last few hour of KLIBF. Books are cheaper! One company even sold their book at 50 cent each! Imagine that? PTS Publication was giving 30% discount to everyone on every product! Such a shame, I didn't bought any because I couldn't think of what to buy that time. By the way, it was raining from the evening, making the environment cool and pleasant. Some picture of us at KLIBF..

We closed and packed everything up before going home. It was around 7pm or something. The rain was still pouring. We went straight back home instead of going to dinner because we need to pray first. And as soon as we arrived home, I took a bath and when I get out from the bathroom, suddenly black water gushing through the cracks on the floor at my bedroom! I was like, "what the fish!" and grab everything away from the water. After quickly went to Ma's room and oh boy, that room is doom with black water all over the place! We hurriedly place every old newspaper we could find that time to block the water from escaping to the living room. Because if that happen, hell break lose that day! We were succeed in blocking the water out from my Mom's room but now she couldn't get out because there's water everywhere and she couldn't bring herself to step on it. Come on, who would? Especially after bathing! Eventually, she go out however. And the kitchen got hit too. The black water was everywhere! I think the kitchen was the worst scene ever with shit coming out from the toilet hole! Yeap! You've read it, shit! The thing is, we didn't use the kitchen toilet because it is broken (a big thanks to the stupid contractor! God curse you). It was raining hard anyway that night, explaining the flash flood inside the house. But, the other house got hit too, apparently. Houses that usually turn off their light at 11pm stayed up until 2am to clean up the mess! Imagine that!

See how dirty the house was? We cleaned up the kitchen first. Well, actually Abang Ezad with the help from Kak Mina. I couldn't stand the smell, at some point, I was going to puke! Same goes to Kak Noris! Urgh!! However, we settled the house. We cleaned it as much as we can. And at 12am, we went for our dinner. Great! Dinner at 12am..and later send Kak Noris back to Putrajaya and finally reached home around 2pm. After that I blacked out immediately!

Now, everytime it rain, I became so scare the same thing will happen again. Actually, this is the second time this has happen. And last night, as we was coming back from dinner, we saw Alam Flora's truck sucking up the sewer. We had to complain before they take action..what a wonderful life. Tsk!

Wish I could be an umbrella...

2010-03-31T00:47:00.001+08:00

Yeah, I do wish that..

I wish to be an umbrella for my parents..

I wish to be an umbrella for my brother..

I wish to be an umbrella for my family..

I wish to be an umbrella for my friends..

Not just any umbrella, I wish to be a wonderful, warm, caring, attentive, and loving umbrella..

But I'm not perfect..sometime I'm torn and worn out..leaving my beloved people expose to the pouring rain or the hotness of the sun..I felt bad every time that happens..I really do..

How I wish...I know perfection is impossible, but I'll try hard to become the best as I could..for my parents, brother, family, friends..

Another Day at KLIBF!

2010-03-27T11:17:00.001+08:00

Salam and afternoon everyone. I'm updating this blog from MBBY booth at PWTC. Today would be my fifth time at KLIBF. Shock? You must be, because if you're not, you are not normal! Even librarians doesn't go to KILBF as often as I did. Hehehe.

Anyway, last Thursday, I followed Kak Mina to KLIBF (my fourth time). Followed her doing some book listing for Perpustakaan Negara Malaysia (Malaysia National Library). Man, you'll felt like a rich person! Because you'll just pull out any book you like and the vendor will took care of it! Hahaha, take this, take that, wow I'm sure "rich" that day!

Anyway, later in the afternoon, my Mom went to PWTC too. We met up there and had lunch together with Aunty Anita & Abang Tam and later on, met up with Kak Ina (who come all the way from Johore). Anyway, we bought lots of magazine from Karangkraf that day..mostly recipe books (hehe). Also, I bought an English dictionary with the DVD version of the dictionary. A book that cost nearing RM100 at RM86, I couldn't think more huhu..

And today, I'm all alone at this booth with so many people walking here and there! You say, as we arrived at PWTC, the were like twenty or more buses outside PWTC! And the car park was full when we go in! It was a nightmare! However, Abang Ezad just parked the car at the side walk..who care! We paid to get in, it's not like we got in free!

Oh, I forgot to mention that, Abah came back yesterday. He's with the UiTM trip (2 buses FYI). And they are going to have a quick stop at PWTC. Wow, another to bus added to the traffic! Oh My God!!! And uh, currently, Ma, Abang Ezad, Kak Noris, Kak Mina is at the Basic of Drawing Cartoon Intensive Course at fifth floor, PWTC. That's why I'm all alone here. Thus, allowing to update my blog, hehe. Oh, I couldn't be more thankful I have celcom broadband!! I'll die with the pure boredom here!! Huhu!!

p/s: Planning a trip for the month of May ;)

Weekends at Kuala Lumpur International Book Fair (KLIBF) Part 2 & more

2010-03-24T18:54:00.001+08:00

Salam and evening! Ok, since the shitty Internet line is fine now, I'm going to continue the second part of the previous entry.

Sunday (21st March 2010)
Went to PWTC with Abang Ezad that morning and arrived 10 minute after 10am. I only stayed until afternoon because someone have to drive Kak Mina's Kelisa back home (due to the knowledge of zero parking space during that time). And so, by 2pm I was back home already. Hehe

But, last Tuesday..or yesterday, I followed my Mom to the Book Fair again. At first, I thought I'm going to join the writing and illustration workshop (organized by MBBY) but apparently I didn't have to join..thank God! After a quick chat with Aunty Anita, Abg Tam & Abg Fadley, me and Ma went for a quest for MUET book! As we ascended the escalator to the third floor, we were greeted by a wooden fance blocking the entrance into the main hall!! Oh my God! They actually blocked the entrance and diverted the traffic to the hall after the river! Which is a very long walk! I guess, the booth tenants were complaining about the number of people went there..and who can blame them (both visitor and tenants)?

But, since we are genius (heh), we went up another floor and used the fourth level entrance which housed hundreds of booth too. And we took the escalator inside the hall on fourth floor and went down directly into the third floor hall..hahaha..and went to one of my Mom friend, Uncle Lee..he suggested Pearson and that is were I bought my MUET book. Also, the latest version of English dictionary, complete with DVD version of the dictionary. I'm itching to bought it! But the price is killing me..RM86 and I just don't have the money to buy it..kinda sad..I'm hoping to buy it this coming Saturday or Sunday or maybe tomorrow because I'm going back to KLIBF! Yeah!! :D

Weekends at Kuala Lumpur International Book Fair (KLIBF) Part 1

2010-03-23T00:52:00.001+08:00

Salam and good-very-early-morning peeps! Last weekends, I spend the days working (to be extremely bored) at MBBY booth. Anyway here goes a kinda long entry.

Saturday (20th March 2010)
Leave the house early in the morning for PWTC. When to the main stage instead to the booth because there's going to be a ceremony to officiate KLIBF 2010, also the prize giving ceremony to NILAM's winner (SSP student won 1st place for primary school & became Tokoh NILAM Kebangsaan. Yay!) and the launching of a book about Najib, Malaysia's current PM. Here the photos, hehe. We even had breakfast but the food just so-so. Gotta to tell you, this is the first time I saw the deputy Prime Minister of Malaysia. And got to tell you, the launching of Malaysia's PM book is more happening than the KLIBF officiate ceremony! Hehehe. After all that, there's the performance by some dance group from high school student from Malacca.

After that, we proceed to the booth. By that time, it was nearing 11am. After that, begun it has the era of boredom and repeated "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star", "Mary Had A Little Lamb", and etc. I was sleepy! Tired! Bored! Oh my god! Plus, there's no power plug! Imagine we can on our laptop for a period of time only! By the way, here the picture of the booth.

Simple, right? By the way, MBBY (as seen in the picture) is an organization that support writers and book publishers of children & youth stories. Which mean, if a publisher or a writer become a member, the organization will promote the book, by taking it to international book fairs around the globe. Also, they provide seminars on creative writing and illustration. And this body or organization is associated with IBBY (International Boards on Books for Young people). Wow, I sound like I'm working right now! Hahahaha.

Anyway, later that night, there's a dinner for the KLIBF. The menu for the night was Chinese Cuisine. Anyway, my Mom said many of the VIP's and guest would not be coming to the dinner which mean the hall is going to be pretty empty. But turn later that night, it is quite full with everyone. I guess the committee members just grab anyone passing by..hahaha. I went in the hall at 8.15pm..and I ate around 9pm. Why? Because of opening speech! Bleh! But, later on the food arrived..hehe..I just love the fried garoupa! Also Broccoli with Pacific Clam! Yummy! Other course are Black Papper Prawn, Chinese Fried Rise, Seafood Soup, Lemon Butter Chicken and I can't remember the rest. Hahaha. But, only some is really good. The other, just so-so. I mean, earlier that day, I've tasted the food and it wasn't good except for the tea (heh). And now, well, as long as I'm full for the night. But my Mom said the PWTC food isn't that great too. Well, too bad.

And, oh yeah. There's a lucky draw that night and my Mom scored a hamper, which by now is nothing more than a history. Hehe. Anyway my Mom is one of the committee member for this Dinner event. And I got to say it was a success! Although all of us felt kinda down because we didn't score that 40 inch LCD TV. Haiz, no luck, what to do?

Part 2 will is on the way. For now, Good night everyone :)

Tomorrow is the day..

2010-03-19T17:02:00.001+08:00

Salam and joyful evening everyone! It's the weekend! And also, it's that time of the year again. I'm talking (or typing) about Kuala Lumpur International Book Fair (KLIBF) which is being held at Putra World Trade Centre (PWTC) starting today until 28th of March.

And I am going to work at a booth called MBBY (Malaysian Board on Book for Young people) and I'm supposed to promote membership..hmm..wonder how I'm going to do it. Maybe I should blackmail the small kids at the fair. Hehehe, like I have the gut!

And, I'm starting to wonder if my application to the UPU was received by the respective universities..I'm worried..because I really want to further my study..sigh..but then again..I have a back-up plan..If I didn't get the UPU, then, I'm going to enrolled into ILP (Institut Latihan Perindustrian) and take up printing course..hehe..

p/s: See you at KLIBF yaw! :D

In The Dark!

2010-03-18T14:40:00.001+08:00

Salam and afternoon! Well, it maybe afternoon but I can't help but to feel the darkness surrounding me! Damn right I said (or typed) darkness! But wait, it's not that kind of darkness! It's the other kind!

The kind that you are left out, not knowing anything! No one is telling me anything and all I see is status update at Facebook! I want to know (when do I become such a busybody? hehehe)!!

I hate this..but this may also mean this is the true colour of my life..as empty as this very house I'm living in..just me..and the cats..alone..

Maybe I should write a book how pathetic my life is and see if that become the best seller. Maybe a Hollywood director will thought the story is good enough to the big screen and actually produce it. Wow, that will solve my financial problem once and for all..hahaha..keep on dreaming buster!

p/s: many Indooooooooonz on Facebook are creating uproar about "We hate Malaysia" well I say whatever! You may hate us, but you still come crawling to our shores(90% illegal 10% legal) and not only that, you (Indoooooooonz) rob us, steal from us, and you even rape! And you even rape your own countrywoman! You may hate us, but we'll just say, whatever pendatang haram.

And so, it begin!

2010-03-16T21:10:00.001+08:00

Salam and evening to you.

Jeng jeng jeng!! *suspense music*

Wondering what on earth is beginning? Hahahaha... *evil laugh*

In just 3 more day....hahahaha *another evil laugh*

You will be amazed..*suspense music resume*

It will be unbelievable!! *suspense music getting louder*

People might even faint of disbelief! *suspense music resume*

Because I will.. *suspense music changed into drum rolls*

on working shift at MBBY booth during the Book Fair for the coming week! But, only on Saturday and Sunday though..hahaha :D

See you at the Book Fair!!

p/s: KL International Book Fair (KLIBF) will start at 19 of March until 28 of March.

Late News and Last Minute Actions!

2010-03-15T16:45:00.001+08:00

Salam and good day y'all. Now, I've received a news that graduating students of KUIN have to pass up a copy of their IC and SPM. A former classmate status at facebook is how I received the news..imagine if I didn't open facebook..until today, nobody is even bothered to tell me. That just show how "friendly" we are huh? Hahahah stop, stop. Don't make some lame joke here!!

Anyway, I called the Academic Affairs just now and said how the hell I'm supposed to send it when I only know it today? Well, actually I was "informed" last Saturday or Friday..anyway, the person I talked to said it's ok just post it. Hahaha, the power of the statement, "I stay at Petaling Jaya, Selangor" is quite powerful isn't it?

Anyway, I won't waste money posting it, I'll just going to fax it, using the faxing machine at my Mom's office. I'm actually not surprise at all with me being left out. Being kept in the dark. Being the sore loser. Big deal, I'm just going to take my diploma, give some nice pose to the camera and be on my way, away from KUIN.

If any of my former classmate reading this, let me tell you this. Thank you for all the you done to me. Each of you have left me a lesson about life. I gotta to say, I am really thankful to enrolled into KUIN. I really get to see all kind of people..but I wouldn't list it down here. It's bad for my image you know..hahahaha.

But I still can't get over this!! Is it hard to even SMS me even if you don't want to call me! I guess the aura of dislike is too strong to even SMS me..yeah yeah, you should all only keep you prepaid to SMS or call you boyfriend or girlfriend..yeah yeah go ahead..tch, so much of being "Islamic college student". Shame on you!

But, look on the bright side. I'm finally having my diploma convocation!! :D

Happy Pi Day!!

2010-03-14T18:14:00.001+08:00

Pi Day and Pi Approximation Day are two holidays held to celebrate the mathematical constant

π

(pi) (in the mm/dd date notation: 3/14); since 3, 1 and 4 are the first three digits of π. March 14 is also the birthday of Albert Einstein and the two events are sometimes celebrated together.

Pi Approximation Day is observed on July 22, because of Archimedes' popular approximation of π being 22/7. However, this may be considered misleading, as all cited dates are "approximation days" (as π is an irrational number) and 22/7 is actually a closer approximation of π than 3.14 is. Typically, March 14 is more popular for countries using the month/day format (22/7 being an impossible date in this format), and the 22nd of July is more popular for countries using the day/month format (since 3/14 and 31/4 are impossible dates in this format).

Sometimes Pi Minute is also celebrated; this occurs on March 14 at 1:59 p.m. If π is truncated to seven decimal places, it becomes 3.1415926; making March 14 at 1:59:26 p.m., Pi Second (or sometimes March 14, 1592 at 6:53:58 a.m.).

There are a large variety of ways of celebrating Pi Day and most of them include eating pie and discussing the relevance of π. The first Pi Day celebration was held at the San Francisco Exploratorium in 1988, with staff and public marching around one of its circular spaces, then consuming fruit pies. The museum has since added pizza to its Pi Day menu.^[1] The founder of Pi Day was Larry Shaw,^[2] a now-retired physicist at the Exploratorium who still helps out with the celebrations.

The Massachusetts Institute of Technology often mails its acceptance letters to be delivered to prospective students on Pi Day.^[3]

Some also celebrate alternative Pi Days and/or Pi Approximation Days in addition to the two listed above; these can fall on any of several dates:

March 4: When 14% of the 3rd month has elapsed.
April 26: The Earth has traveled two radians of its orbit on this day (April 25 in leap years), reckoning from the start of the civil year on January 1. Thus the entire orbit divided by the distance traveled equals π; two radians equals ¹⁄_π of our orbit. This is celebrated exactly on the 41st second of the 23rd minute of the 4th hour on April 26 or the 116th day. (In leap years, it is celebrated exactly on the 3rd second of the 2nd minute of the 12th hour on April 25 or the 116th day.) This celebration is not a Pi Approximation Day; many, mathematicians included, celebrate April 26 as Pi Day and say that it should be the official Pi Day.
November 10: The 314th day of the year (November 9 in leap years).
December 21, 1:13 p.m.: The 355th day of the year (December 20 in leap years), celebrated at 1:13 for the Chinese approximation 355/113.

On Pi Day 2004, Daniel Tammet recited 22,514 decimal digits of π.^[4]

On Pi Day 2010, Google celebrated by changing the logo on the search engine's home page into a Pi related sketch up.

The U.S. House of Representatives passed a non-binding resolution (HRES 224),^[5] recognizing March 14, 2009 as National Pi Day.^[6]

credit to wikipedia

So, to all math enthusiasm (and freak), go ahead and celebrate your pi day!! :D it mention holiday, but we all know that's not going to happen at Malaysia. Hahahah

You gotta have faith!

2010-03-12T17:48:00.001+08:00

Salam and evening to all. Now, I'm sure each of us have the day when you wish you weren't doing the things that make the day go from good to bad (or bad to worse). Or the day when you wish you could throw a punch to someone's face. Or maybe you just wish you can assassinate that certain somebody.

Well, don't.

Do not regret the actions you do, but regret the consequences from the actions. Do not punch/hit anyone or you will face a lot more trouble..like spending a night in jail, however do have patience if someone annoy you. And certainly, do not kill anyone! No one deserve to die! Again, have patience and if possible, have a sympathy to that person because of their incurable condition (may Allah bless them).

I guess, what I'm trying to say is, you gotta have faith!! As I've mention in my previous post :

Because faith breed hope.

Hope breed believe.

Believe breed trust.

Trust breed love.

And as a Muslim, didn't we have the the 6 pillars of faith?

Faith in God

Faith in angels

Faith in prophets

Faith in books of revelation

Faith in an afterlife

Faith in destiny/divine decree

This is the very basic faith for Muslims..so if (a) problem(s) show up, just have faith. Everything will be fine. And if you work hard to solve the problem(s), Insya-Allah, everyone will see you contribution. So, just have faith my fellow reader. No matter what religion you are ;)

Why? Because human is empty without one. Period.

If only..

2010-03-10T15:12:00.001+08:00

Salam and pleasant afternoon. The mid term school holiday is approaching, which is next week. Happy holidays to all the kiddies :D

Well, as of late, I really want to buy couple of things..like the DSLR camera..new handphone..new laptop..and also I strangely wanted to pay the water, electric, telephone and p1 bill! I don't know what's got into me. It's not I've got the money, I don't even have a job for crying out loud! This feeling is super strange you know, it makes me feel soon I'm gonna be loaded..yeah, like's that ever going to happen. Well, it will happen if I'm married to some millionaire daughter. And I will be even more loaded if I married millionaire daughters! Notice the "s" people! Hahaha!! Oh well, never going to happen. Period.

But seriously, if only I got the money..the water and electric bills will be paid 12 month advance. Believe me, I'll do that. So whenever the bill do come, it will be in negative. Haha...

If only...

Well, I still trust this "soon-will-be-loaded-feeling"..hehehe

On the hand, the project progress is amazing..we got a new idea and now Amalina is teaming up with us..for now, we're still finding points for our book..and then we'll discuss it even further. Hehe..can't tell you yet what it is. Wouldn't be a surprise if I announce it now, right?

p/s: miss an interview today due to the fact I only know about it today at 10.30am...and the interview time was 12.30pm..lame..

I Gotta Have Faith!

2010-03-09T14:08:00.001+08:00

Salam and afternoon. Regarding the title, not only me, but I believe everyone should have faith. I mean, it is what fuel us to go every single day, right?

Have faith if your day isn't going well.

Have faith if you fail in you task.

Have faith even the future is dark

Have faith even you couldn't achieve your dream.

Have faith if you think you're falling apart.

Have faith when someone you loved leave you.

The bottom line is, have faith! It doesn't matter what religion you are, but have faith. As a Muslim, faith is a must. Without faith, life is practically empty.

Because faith breed hope.

Hope breed believe.

Believe breed trust.

Trust breed love.

I gotta have faith!

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2010-03-07T12:18:00.001+08:00

Dear self,

Assalammualaikum. How are you? I hope your are in the best condition one could be. The reason I wrote this to you is to ask what is you plan for the future.

I heard that you already apply at UPU for university enrolment, congratulation. I am pretty sure they will reply you soon. But, I'm not sure what you are doing currently. I know you are unemployed, why don't you get a job? I mean, I know you have lots of plan, and those plan is not free. Nowadays, nothing is free, you will need money to execute your plans! However I do heard that you want to write books or in this modern time, you actually type the books. That is a brilliant idea! I'm sure you will be able to do it.

Furthermore, I am confident in your ability to write, remember the essays during secondary school? All of your essay were amazing, well amazing enough to get high score. Back to the books, I heard that your books are going to based on children story and you are going to manipulate the story into the current world. I think it is amazing, because I think no one have done it before.

Also, I heard that you get an offer to become the KL Book Fair ambassador. Just accept it! You will gain experience and money! Don't worry about the work time, I'm sure there are shift between the ambassadors. Just accept it ok?

I'll hold my thought for now. I hope whatever you choose will be the best pick for you. Good luck in everything.

With best interest,
Yourself.

Weekends! No progress :s

2010-03-05T15:53:00.001+08:00

Salam and evening! Phew, what a hot day eh? But, the horizon is dark..a sign of rain perhaps? Let's hope so! A downpour would be great..maybe..haha..anyway, I went to the Friday prayer today and guess what! The khutbah was in English! Yes, English! I can see quite a number of people with the surprise look on their face. The khutbah warns us about the danger of wealth and how modern men are obsess with wealth, so obsess that their religion is chasing & collecting wealth, and their Ka'abah is money. Sound bad huh? The reality is even worse. That's what happening in this world anyway..

But, on the other hand, I still have no progress on the book! I have the idea but I couldn't find the material yet! This is so pathetic! :s maybe I should stop relying on others and just kick my back into this alone. Ah, but I will finish up this book. And so far, only Marina is willing to help..hey Michelle, we'll be co-author! Hahaha.

And now, the thunder are roaring and the atmosphere are cooling down..welcome rain, goodbye sunshine!

Longing for something!

2010-03-04T14:03:00.001+08:00

Salam and pleasant afternoon to all..now, have you ever want something so bad, you'll kill for it?! I know I have! In fact, I want it now! Ok, soon!

What do you want?
I want to go for a holiday!! Preferably, somewhere near the beach.

Why do want it?
Because, I need a break from this exhausting city life! And I especially miss the beaches (not bitches ok)

What's you plan when you get it?
Just enjoy it while it last. Oh, takes lots of picture too

Who are you going to share "it" with?
I would love to bring my family together..and friends..but that's going to two separate trip..better like this cause I get to go for a second trip ;)

What's your actual motives wanting "it"?
Fine! I'm dead bored and I want fun! That's all, ok? And I'm tired of staying home all the time! :c

This is the result of being blur in front of the laptop for couple of hours..I have to say I miss Langkawi!!! Holiday! Holiday! Holiday!

Couldn't Sleep

2010-03-03T03:00:00.001+08:00

Aaaaaargh! I can't sleep! I yawn thousands of time but these eyes of mine won't close! They're bright as the spotlight during the Academy Award red carpet session..lol

However, I'm glad to say that we (finally) make a progress on the project. By "we" I mean me and Marina. I can't just tell it here though..have to wait until at least the draft is finish haha. I hope this project will be a stepping stone for many things to come..Oh, I just can't wait! Maybe because of this, I can't sleep..nah, impossible..

Still can't sleep..eyes wide open..yawn..

First Day of March

2010-03-01T00:12:00.001+08:00

Salam and evening people! Came back from Cameron Highland yesterday, and super lazy to update anything. However, allow me to write what happen at Cameron Highland..but before that, stay overnight at Tapah

We went to Cameron on Friday morning. The journey was pleasant. There's not much car at Cameron and we owned the streets! Well, not really. Anyway, went to Boh Tea Centre at Sungei Palas. Hundreds of time been to Cameron and this is the first time I went there. Why? Because the road is so narrow, even 2 kancil wouldn't fit. Thankfully, there's not much car when we arrived.

But, I have to say Boh Tea Centre is amazing! Words couldn't describe how beautiful the scenery is! Well, worth the scary-near-death experience going to the place! Ok, I'm exaggerating, but it is scary. Have a tour around the place, but didn't go into the factory though. What for anyway, it's not like I'm writing a report to pass up to my lecturer anyway. We went into the merchandise shop, and bought lots of Boh product and after that, went to the tea shop, and since we're in Cameron, there's a lot of variety of tea. Take a while to decide..haha

After that, we went to the chalet and check in. A nice place near the Orang Asli village. As soon as we checked in, I slept! Don't know why, but I felt very tired and just sleep. And not soon after, I heard loud pounding on the roof. It was raining like it haven't rain in two years. It start around 1pm and end at 5pm..and we haven't have lunch yet. Imagine how hungry we are during that period! So, as soon as the rain stop, we practically, ran to the car and went to Brinchang for lunch (at 5pm) and later went to Brinchang night market. People were pouring into the night market! And polices are happily giving summons to the vehicles that parked like they owned the street. And for dinner, we bought a lot of stuff, and ate our heart our that night. Simply delicious!

I have no idea what to write anymore. However, it's cool that we went there without the UiTM bus. Usually, I just followed my dad with his class trip.

The next day, went to Kea Farm and bought bunch of flowers. I was holding the roses when suddenly a woman came to me and ask, how much did I bought those flower. Haha, well, I was holding Super Rose(when it bloom, it's huge), white and pink roses. Later, we stop at Abang Ezad's house at Tapah. To make long story short, we gave him a t-shirt. Not just ordinary t-shirt

Hahahaha :D If you can't see, just click the picture to enlarge :)

p/s: Happy March everyone!! :D

Friday is Coming

2010-02-25T15:41:00.001+08:00

Salam and good evening peeps! It's a lovely Thursday isn't it?

Well first, I changed the layout of my blog. I doesn't remember where I discover this layout, sort of google it out of nowhere and ta-da here it is! There's a lot to be done with this layout, seriously.

But put that aside for the moment. I'm going to Tapah tonight. By "I'm", I mean me, Ma, Kak Mina, Kak Noris, and Abang Ezad. Don't know if Fikri coming along. Not sure what time we're going, but it's tonight alright. And we're going to meet Abah there.

And tomorrow, we're ascending to Cameron Highland! Should be exciting but it's not. I've been to Cameron Highland so many time, I don't know what to enjoy anymore. It's always the same..even worse, the traffic congestion is worst compare to KL's one! However, I do love the cold wind, enjoying the hot tea while surrounded by the tea farm..haha. Well, I'm still going no matter what.

And of course, tomorrow is our beloved Prophet Muhammad(PBUH) birthday. Yes, tomorrow is the day where a light was given to this world. He may not with us today but he did certainly leave so many things for us, and it's up to us to uphold his legacy.

A link >>> Maulidur Rasul

Until then, Salam

A Spark of Idea

2010-02-24T15:50:00.001+08:00

Salam and evening people. Ok, straight to the point, I have an idea. Actually, I have for quite some time now. What is it? To write a book. Hehe. Sound ridiculous? Don't think so..is it? Aargh! But I really want to do this! At least there's something to do beside watching tv and browsing all day long! I need a topic, an idea on what to write. Oh, please no politic/health/crappy stuff.

And of course, I would love to ask a few friend to join :D It would be fun, and we'll get some cash. Seriously. It's fun! My dad wrote a book, entitled "Kuala Lumpur Legacy" and it's a book that show Kuala Lumpur from what is was until now. Full with picture. Want to buy it? Well, good luck finding it because I don't even know where they sell it. But, I do know the publisher and I guess you can get it from there. Wait, this is out from the topic!

Now, seriously, who want to give me a hand? I need ideas on what to write about. I'll ask my Mom for some ideas, I hope anyone who read this, please share some ideas too ;)

p/s: I've open up comment, it's the "post-it" LoL

Of Mingguan Wanita & Macaroni and Cheese!

2010-02-17T14:12:00.001+08:00

Salam and pleasant afternoon! I've wanted to post an entry earlier but for the past few day have been busy for me. It's like I'm celebrating Chinese New Year! But I'm not! LoL

Anyway, first update : My Mom is in "Wanita Cemerlang" section of Mingguan Wanita 19 - 22 February edition. I'll let the picture do the talking...or explaining..whatever

If I have a scanner, I'll scan it already heh! I know those ****** at Perpustakaan Kuala Lumpur is going to die from heart attack or high blood pressure. They can even be gunned down or hit and run, I don't really care. I don't have mercy for those kind of people. But what most important is, my Mom is a successful woman despite everything those ****** tried to bring her down :D You go Ma!

Ok, second update!! Macaroni and cheese! Well, it taste kinda bland, you know, tasteless except for cheese and nothing else. I mean the cheese sauce. I kinda separate the macaroni and cheese. Now showing the picture to the world...which I don't have it.......WHAT THE FISHES IN THE SEA?!

I'm doom! I don't have the picture!! Nooo~~ :'(

I See You

2010-02-12T15:56:00.001+08:00

To all my family and friends..I See You..

I see you
I see you
Walking through a dream
I see you
My light in darkness breathing hope of new life
Now I live through you and you through me
Enchanting
I pray in my heart that this dream never ends
I see me through your eyes

Living through life flying high
Your life shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
I live through your love
You teach me how to see

All that’s beautiful
My senses touch your word I never pictured
Now I give my hope to you
I surrender
I pray in my heart that this world never ends
I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life
I offer my love, for you
When my heart was never open
(and my spirit never free)
To the world that you have shown me
But my eyes could not division
All the colours of love and of life ever more

Evermore
(I see me through your eyes)
I see me through your eyes
(Living through life flying high)
Flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
And live through your love
And live through your life
I see you
I see you

Interesting Day? Not

2010-02-10T10:03:00.001+08:00

Salam and morning! A normal, boring day with Chinese New Year coming, which mean KL is going to be so empty, I can actually drive there without cursing so much. Ooops! Hahahah :D

Abah coming back today, will be driving all the way from Kelantan. Fikri this Friday/Saturday, from Segamat, Johore. Me, currently downloading Supernatural Season 1..what a big ambition. My hard disk is almost full. External hard disk, useless haven't format it yet.

On the other hand. Have you ever talked to someone and find you saying to yourself, "you hypocrite!" or even feel like one? Well, I do. And lately, that feeling is even stronger. I seriously don't know why, however I do think back what make me feel that way..retracing step by step what I've done or said in the past that make me feel that way. And I believe, I know why, but let me keep that a secret, for now.

Also, do you ever feel so miserable with yourself? Feeling so useless, and stupid? That's how I feel. I don't know what other people think of me. I don't even know what my family thinks of me. I really don't know. Perhaps they think I'm a loser or even a useless person..well, if they do, I'm not surprise. I hardly done anything they can be proud off.

And do you ever feel like running away, like not run away from home and stay in the same city. Run away to other country. I have, millions of time. I don't what make me think that way, but I think the urge to feel free is a major factor. Being free of nagging, free of responsibilities and such. It's bad right? I can't help of thinking that way, seriously lol..

Anyway, I'm happy as I am. And I can't help but to feel excited to continue my study. I actually rather be in class than being home, do nothing! But, I haven't sent all the related documents to UiTM, UIAM, and UPM. Why? Because my ex-alma mater, KUIN, is unable to produce my mini transcript! I mean, what the hell people? It's just a transcript! Oh, I forgot, KUIN is a master in making people life miserable...

By the way, when do I have the opportunity to go somewhere, for a getaway! I would love to do so..with friends. But, everyone is suzy-busy we can't just find the time -___-" well I'm sure we'll think of something, right? :D

Special Monday!

2010-02-08T01:01:00.001+08:00

Salam and good evening. Well, technically it's nightime ok? Anyway it's Monday and it is my Ma birthday. Yeap, her 46th Birthday! :D

Happy Birthday Ma. May Allah give you strength and courage for whatever stores for you in the future. I love you so much. I know I've done things that make you uncomfortable, or dislike, or even hate. I'm sorry but I'll work hard to be a better person. I hope you'll have a great day and years ahead.

Your son,
Zul

Thank You..

2010-02-05T20:15:00.001+08:00

This goes to all that have touch my life, in their own way.

Thank you so much for everything.

I'm sorry if I ever hurt you, sinned against you.

I hope you guys can actually put this up at your blog/website :D

And I do whenever you guys saw this, you remember me in a good way.

Again, thank you so much for everything.

Finally!

2010-02-05T03:39:00.001+08:00

Salam and good morning everyone! I can't sleep! Help! It's 3am in the morning and I've got to send my mom to work later! Help!! Baah, whatever. I'll just stay awake until than (~_~)

Anyway, I (and Ma, and Kak Minah) finally filled up 8 choices of course at the UPU. They are:-

Pilihan 1: EA38 SAINS PENGAJIAN MAKLUMAT (PENGURUSAN SISTEM MAKLUMAT) UiTM
Pilihan 2: YT06 SARJANA MUDA PENDIDIKAN (PENGAJARAN BAHASA INGGERIS SEBAGAI BAHASA KEDUA)(KEPUJIAN)# UIAM
Pilihan 3: EE11 PENTADBIRAN PERNIAGAAN (PENGURUSAN SUMBER MANUSIA) UiTM
Pilihan 4: PP33 BACELOR SAINS (PEMBANGUNAN MANUSIA DAN PENGURUSAN) UPM
Pilihan 5: YC01 SARJANA MUDA TEKNOLOGI MAKLUMAT (KEPUJIAN) UIAM
Pilihan 6: PP34 BACELOR SAINS (PEMBANGUNAN MANUSIA DAN TEKNOLOGI MAKLUMAT)UPM
Pilihan 7: PB00 BACELOR SASTERA (BAHASA INGGERIS) UPM
Pilihan 8: EP13 SAINS PENGURUSAN HOTEL UiTM

Let's see. The first choice is Science of Information Management (Information System Management) at UiTM. Enough said, I'll be working in a library if I graduate with this degree. Except I do not sit at the counter, I'll be in the backroom with all the computers and servers. Hahah :D

Second choice, Degree in Education (Teaching English As Second Language) which also known as TESL. If I get this, I will be another student at UIAM Gombak I suppose haha. And I definitely going to teach kids English. Gee, I wonder if I got my English right? I'll found that soon enough :D

Third choice is Business Management (Human Resource Management) at UiTM. Aaah, if I ever graduate with this degree, I'm going to manage all the human resource at certain office. Or in other words, I'm in control of their life!! Hahahah! (Really?! -.-")

Fourth choice, Science Bachelor (Human Development and Management) at UPM. It's the same as third choice but with fancier name. And at the largest university in Malaysia that is. Cool? Don't know what to say. Lol

Fifth choice would be Bachelor in Information Technology at UIAM. The hope to get this is one is like wishing a well filled up with gold. Never going to happen! Why I chose it then? Well, got to choose something to fill the field right? :D

Sixth choice, this one is great. Science Bachelor (Human Development & Information Technology). It's like combining choice number four and five! And it's at UPM! How ironic! xD

Seventh choice, Literature Bachelor (English). I'm not sure about this one. Am I going to learn all the Shakespear stuff? Oh Romeo Oh Juliet. Anyway, my mom force this on me. So, can't exactly say no, right?

Eight choice. Science of Hotel Management at UiTM. If I ever get this..the possibilities for me to jump into the hotel world is...well..slim. It maybe called Science of Hotel Management but you still can end up in some government office doing management works..who knows?!

Oh, did I mention that before I can enrolled to choice number 2, I have to went through an interview? Dear me and myself (~_~)

It's Federal Day!

2010-02-01T12:06:00.001+08:00

Salam and afternoon everybody. Happy holiday to those who work or school at any of the federal territory (KL, Labuan, Putrajaya). And on this very date, 1st February, is my Abah birthday!

Happy 46th Birthday Abah!

The Final Day of January

2010-01-31T19:00:00.001+08:00

Salam and evening everyone. It's Sunday and it is the final day for the month of January. Nothing special today, except we ate lunch at my aunt's house hehe :D

Still finding a job, somewhere near home is wonderful, or it could be at KL, near an LRT (like Sogo, perhaps?) haahaha anyway!! Anyway, I think I'm addicted to this song, by Michael Buble entitled, Haven't Met You Yet. Enjoy!

Here's the lyric

I'm Not Surprised
Not Everything Lasts
I've Broken My Heart So Many Times,
I Stop Keeping Track.
Talk Myself In
I Talk Myself Out
I Get All Worked Up
And Then I Let Myself Down.

I Tried So Very Hard Not To Loose It
I Came Up With A Million Excuses
I Thought I Thought Of Every Possibility

And I Know Someday That It'll All Turn Out
You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid That I'll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

Mmmmm ....

I Might Have To Wait
I'll Never Give Up
I Guess It's Half Timing
And The Other Half's Luck
Wherever You Are
Whenever It's Right
You Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Baby Your Love Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Possibility

Mmmmm ......

And Somehow I Know That It Will All Turn Out
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid I'll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

They Say All's Fair
And In Love And War
But I Won't Need To Fight It
We'll Get It Right
And We'll Be United

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Being In Your Life Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Single Possibility

Mmmm .....

And Someday I Know It'll All Turn Out
And I'll Work To Work It Out
Promise You Kid I'll Give More Than I Get
Than I Get Than I Get Than I Get

Oh You Know It'll All Turn Out
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid To Give So Much More Than I Get
Yeah I Just Haven't Met You Yet

I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Oh Promise You Kid
To Give So Much More Than I Get

I Said Love Love Love Love Love Love Love .....
I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Love Love Love .....
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

Until then,
Salam n bye2

And So, I...

2010-01-30T15:08:00.001+08:00

didn't go to Machang. Don't know why though, and if anyone insist for an answer, I think the most suitable answer would be, "whose gonna send Fikri to Pudu?" haha! By the way, Fikri is my brother. He arrived yesterday and the entourage to Machang leave at 5am today and my brother is long gone which leave me home alone, with the cats, Astro, laptop and Internet. Oh yeah, quite weekend! But the Internet(P1 Wi-thelineiscrappy-max) really make my day. Yeah, it have to give lousy service today, it just have to. This December, when the contract is over, I am so cancelling this stupid service >_>

And maybe I would go to another stupid service, but at least this one won't start blinking if anyone walk infront of it! Yeap, Streamyx is the one! Hahaha! Anyway I'm dying to download another four episode of Merlin season 2! It's killing me everytime the stupid modem blink blink blink! And now it's completely useless, can't get a connection at all! I have to use my phone to online. Celcom is the best after all!! Haha :D

Well, I'll write more later,
Salam.

p/s: Happy Thaipusam to all Hindus

Complicated..

2010-01-28T18:35:00.001+08:00

Salam and pleasant evening everyone. It's been a week since my birthday passed (22nd January), and life is the same, the usual. Now I'm already 21 years old, I need a job, badly. Money is a hot issues currently, well doesn't it always? Haha.

By the way, I've registered MUET and my exam centre is at some school name SMK Taman Desa at KL. Where on earth is that?! I'm so changing my exam centre! That's going to cost RM25..heh money all the way!

And uh, I've become bored with the online games, so I actually delete and block Farmville, Fishville and Cafe World at Facebook. I also delete all my characters at another online game. They all become, so boring and lame!

And ya, end of this week, I'm going to Machang, Kelantan to visit my dad there. Well, not me alone there going to be Ma, Abg Ezad, Kak Minah/Jemah(hehe), Kak Noris, and Kak Aida. All of us going with the Perdana V6. 6 people in a Perdana? I would love to stay at home! But, they said it's ok, they'll fit in. Huh, we'll see about it in couple of days..haha.

21 years old and jobless..sound pathetic..the reason I've neglected this blog for quite some time is playing game! The gaming era maybe over, but the downloading era is still strong for I'm finishing my download on Merlin Season 2! I've already have the complete set for Season 1. Haha, and this particular someone wanted to trade these two Merlin season with two Korean drama! I forgot the titles though..haha, well just wait for it, you particular person!

Well, I guess that it. Until next time.
Salam and take care.

The Recent Life...

2010-01-06T12:33:00.001+08:00

Salam and afternoon people. Uh, it's a boring Wednesday noon..and I'm messed up inside out. I don't know what's happening to me. I can't describe my feeling, the squeezing madness inside me, make me mad at everything!

I felt like crying, but the tears just won't come out..bah, whatever! Maybe it's due I'm doing nothing at the moment. I've been neglecting this blog for quite some time. Yea, well I don't have any idea what to write about..until now that is haha.. :D

As you know, I've been active at Facebook and nothing else. I always open this blog and think over a million times about materials..I used to chant, "what to write, what to write", luckily nobody (I think) ever heard me. Ok, this doesn't suite the title above.

Anyway, in my previous post, I've mention that my dad have been transferred to UiTM Machang at Kelantan. Before this, he was at UiTM Puncak Perdana, Shah Alam. Last Monday, my mom said to me that those sick and pig bastards and bitches at UiTM Puncak Perdana forced my dad to write a transfer later to UiTM Segamat. But, they were shocked when they found out my brother is studying there. Of fear this will benefict my dad, they forced him to write a transfer latter to UiTM Machang instead. I think they'll hope my dad will crack there. Maybe they hope my dad will drop down and dead. BUT HOW WRONG THEY CAN BE! For your information, my mom is Kelantanis, therefore our family is much much larger at Kelantan. Weeks before my dad moved there, the whole family already knew, which is incredible since he only to us. And so, our relatives and family help my dad to find a rent house, and when he went there, they all welcomed him with open arms.

But, even if you throw my dad to Sabah, he can live. Throw him to any part of Malaysia, he'll live. He have friends all over Malaysia, and if not friends, he have ex-students all over Malaysia! And you people just got to throw him to Machang. Poor Poor bastards and bitches, your plan fail MISERABLY!!

And believe me, we will come out even stronger! And just so you know, what goes around, come back around..so wait for it..

It's been so long!

2009-12-31T17:36:00.001+08:00

Salam and evening everyone. I'm sorry, for the past 3 weeks, I was busy working at the Japan Foundation Kuala Lumpur, I don't have the leisure tu update my blog, I barely can on my facebook! But, no matter, everything is notghing but the past. Ammar and Syakir already went back two days ago. And today, Abah went to Kelantan. He was transferred to UiTM Machang by some selfish and @*#@ people. Which leave us in a very difficult position.

But still, life must goes on. The next thing I'm going to do it MUET I guess. Uhhh, gotta stop here. Going to send Opah back to Bruas, Perak later.

Well, this then,
ZuwL out.
Salam

Updates!

2009-12-03T13:33:00.001+08:00

Salam and afternoon everyone! Sorry, was lazy to type anything here. Hehe. But here goes nothing now.

27 of November
Was the Eiduladha. Just a simple celebration. Cook a few special dish, and the family member gathers and ate together.

28th of November
10am, I boarded the bus to Alor Star. Went there for my classmate, Kak Husna, wedding. As soon as I arrived there, my friend, Hamizan, pick me up and went to his grandparents house. They were having "Kenduri Korban" which means, they cook the cow they slaughtered for the guests to eat. Ah, delicious I tell you. Apparently, Eiduladha at Kedah were much fun and festive. Unlike KL, Kedahan actually make special occasion by inviting family, friends, and neighbours to join and ate together the meat. The spirit of Eiduladha was much alive, just like Eidulfitri I think. And Hamizan told me there's like another 7 or more people inviting his family to their own Kenduri Korban. Amazing, I can't even stuff another thing in my stomach and there are more kenduri? OMG!

29th of November
The Wedding day. I woke up early but Hamizan woke up at 12pm. Najmie, Syakir, Zack, Am came to Hamizan's house but they left for the wedding first because Hamizan have to go to Alor Star to pickup Solehah and Aton. We also promised Alif to meet him there because he don't know which way to take to go to wedding. After an hour plus waiting, we're moving to Jitra and suddenly, Ayu called and said to wait at Anak Bukit. So we did, and after 15 minute she arrived with the brother's car and she said she didn't bring the wedding present! Hahahah! I thought so! But, they live so close. They could see each other anytime to give the present.

So, we arrived and quickly went inside the hall (yeah, the wedding was held in a hall) and grab the food! We're hungry and we're waiting quite sometime to have lunch! When we arrived, Kak Husna was praying that's why we grab the food first. Hehehe. As soon as we finished eating, Kak Husna appeared and I went to say hi because she's too busy with a swarm of guest around her. After successfully made contact(hahah), went back to my seat and wait. Haha, she look pretty that day. Well, of course! You don't want to look horrible on your wedding day isn't it? Haha. We couldn't stay long because Hamizan, Aton, and Solehah have to went back to Sg. Petani that evening because they have class tomorrow (they enrolled into Kismec). So, went back to Hamizan house and packed everything he wanted to bring. After that, we (Hamizan with his motorcycle. Hisham, Hamizan's brother driving the car with me, aton and solehah along. Alif with his friend, Wan Abidah and her siblings.) went to the girls hostel at Alor Star to pick up Aton's stuff. After sending Wan Abidah home and stop at the nearby home for Maghrib prayer, we make our way to Sg. Petani.

I was supposed to get on a 11pm bus to Kuala Lumpur that night. But, as soon as we passed the Pendang Toll, the highway came to a stand. The cars won't even move! At that time, I was saying to myself, "Bye-Bye RM42". The traffic jem was cause by an accident. And according to Hamizan, one person died. He knows because he was on his motorcycle. And when we arrived at the scene, the cars have been moved to the side and there were glasses on the road and I actually saw blood on the road. But, other than that, I don't see why the car have to move sooo slow!!! Aaargh!! Typical Malaysian! Stupid!

Arrived at Sg. Petani around 9pm and settled everything by 9.50pm. There's no way we're going to get back to Jitra by 11pm for my bus now. Luckily I've bought the next day ticket to KL. Sigh, just not my luck..

30th of November
The Transnational bus was on 12.30pm and we make our my to Alor Star at 12pm. Hahaha, but I made it, nevertheless. A big thank you to Abg Hisham and his family! For the ride and the hospitality! Thank you so much! :D

There goes my summary of my adventure at Kedah haha. Now for the adventure at Petrosains..

2nd of December
Me, Dad, Siti, Hajar, and Mariam set out to Suria KLCC around 10.40am. As soons as we arrived bought the tickets and it only cost RM24! Haha save RM12! So, we make our way into the Petrosains, the kids was excited, I can tell by their looks. Haha. They had fun, my dad had fun even I had fun! Hahaha! What more can I write? It was fun! And we end the day by eating KFC.

That's all I guess..I wanted to upload the picture but with P1 WIMAX lousy and stupid line, I couldn't do anything. So, I'll wait for the line to be stable first hehe.

Until then

Happy Eid Adha

2009-11-25T10:26:00.001+08:00

What is Eid al-Adha

At the end of the Hajj (annual pilgrimage to Mecca), Muslims throughout the world celebrate the holiday of Eid al-Adha (Festival of Sacrifice). In 2009, Eid al-Adha will begin on approximately November 27th, and will last for three days.

What does Eid al-Adha commemorate?

During the Hajj, Muslims remember and commemorate the trials and triumphs of the Prophet Abraham. The Qur'an describes Abraham as follows:

"Surely Abraham was an example, obedient to Allah, by nature upright, and he was not of the polytheists. He was grateful for Our bounties. We chose him and guided him unto a right path. We gave him good in this world, and in the next he will most surely be among the righteous." (Qur'an 16:120-121)

One of Abraham's main trials was to face the command of Allah to kill his only son. Upon hearing this command, he prepared to submit to Allah's will. When he was all prepared to do it, Allah revealed to him that his "sacrifice" had already been fulfilled. He had shown that his love for his Lord superceded all others, that he would lay down his own life or the lives of those dear to him in order to submit to God.

Why do Muslims sacrifice an animal on this day?

During the celebration of Eid al-Adha, Muslims commemorate and remember Abraham's trials, by themselves slaughtering an animal such as a sheep, camel, or goat. This action is very often misunderstood by those outside the faith.

Allah has given us power over animals and allowed us to eat meat, but only if we pronounce His name at the solemn act of taking life. Muslims slaughter animals in the same way throughout the year. By saying the name of Allah at the time of slaughter, we are reminded that life is sacred.

The meat from the sacrifice of Eid al-Adha is mostly given away to others. One-third is eaten by immediate family and relatives, one-third is given away to friends, and one-third is donated to the poor. The act symbolizes our willingness to give up things that are of benefit to us or close to our hearts, in order to follow Allah's commands. It also symbolizes our willingness to give up some of our own bounties, in order to strengthen ties of friendship and help those who are in need. We recognize that all blessings come from Allah, and we should open our hearts and share with others.

It is very important to understand that the sacrifice itself, as practiced by Muslims, has nothing to do with atoning for our sins or using the blood to wash ourselves from sin. This is a misunderstanding by those of previous generations: "It is not their meat nor their blood that reaches Allah; it is your piety that reaches Him." (Qur'an 22:37)

The symbolism is in the attitude - a willingness to make sacrifices in our lives in order to stay on the Straight Path. Each of us makes small sacrifices, giving up things that are fun or important to us. A true Muslim, one who submits his or herself completely to the Lord, is willing to follow Allah's commands completely and obediently. It is this strength of heart, purity in faith, and willing obedience that our Lord desires from us.

What else do Muslims do to celebrate the holiday?

On the first morning of Eid al-Adha, Muslims around the world attend morning prayers at their local mosques. Prayers are followed by visits with family and friends, and the exchange of greetings and gifts. At some point, members of the family will visit a local farm or otherwise will make arrangements for the slaughter of an animal. The meat is distributed during the days of the holiday or shortly thereafter.

Taken from About.com:Islam

And I'm taking this chance to wish everyone a Happy and blissful Eid Adha!

And So, It End

2009-11-20T11:13:00.001+08:00

Salam and morning! Ahh, it's a fine Friday morning at Alor Star. Yesterday, went for a celebration trip with my classmates..why? Well, we just finish our diploma (Insya-Allah). Hahah! Yeah, went out from 2pm until 12am! Imagine driving on the long hour with Kancil! My legs are sore man! Hahah!

And, I'm going to apply my degree at KUIN..and I'm taking Degree of Information Technology (Computer Science & Network). Crazy? Yeah, I know! But, compare to other course, I prefer this actually, well mainly due to short study year. According to a reliable source (ewah), we can finish our degree in about 2 and half year, same like my diploma time! And another reason for choosing KUIN is I didn't do my MUET yet! -__-"

Ah, going to do it anyway. Actually, I wanted to write about yesterday adventure but, I'll have some photo's before I start writing about it. Well, a photo do means a thousand words.

And I'm going back this Saturday on Sunday. And I'm coming back to Alor Star this 29 November for Kak Husna wedding! Congratulation Kak Husna! Haha

Until then, Zul out. Salam

It will end soon..

2009-11-17T11:16:00.001+08:00

Salam and morning..erm my diploma, Insya-Allah, will end this 19 November 2009 with last paper, Web & Internet Programming..I found it difficult to write anything. I was planning to publish this yesterday but due to blankness, I couldn't write anything.

Soon, my "beloved" class will be parted and I can say that I'm glad and sad at the same time. Why? Let's see..sad because we can't hang out together anymore..we can't go for a trip together and so on..glad because I'm finally leaving a bunch of headstrong that too arrogant to except the reality. What do I mean by that? Well, we were planning a class trip early this semester, to Langkawi but only a minority can follow. So, after a long thinking and some debate I've proposed we went to Pahang National Park, but under our college. The Langkawi trip is on our own. But, just our luck, another course already book the bus for the date we planned. Expensive fees but only 1 bus capable of long distance travel. What a shitty college. Anyway, since the Pahang trip were not going to happen, we discussed again and finally they said went to Penang. Ok, so we searched at the Internet for a suitable place for accommodation and managed to find a few. Call all of it and was quickly put down because it was too expensive. Even the simple chalet is expensive. Reason: School Holiday, huh!

And now, we're going to Teluk Batik, Perak. Ok, Teluk Batik resort are cheap. And so, we planned to go there. Originally, there were 18 people that agreed to go. I've already bank in the deposit and fax the slip to the resort when suddenly I found out there's going to be 8 of us going..WHAT THE FISH IS THIS?! The others said they still want to go. But I say, I want to go back to KL! Idiots! Damn!! I don't have the hears to this anymore. If I ever went into another university or college, I'm not going to do this anymore.

And so, I'll leave this place with this important lesson : Never plan anything unless you got some authorization that can make the plan a reality!

Hurm! I hope we'll never see each other again. You can leave me comments at Friendster but too bad, I'm only on Facebook now..more than half of them don't even know how to use Facebook and they call themselves IT student? Pur-lease!!

Damn these people! Why do I listen to them anyway?! One of them said : going under KUIN is troublesome, and like a stupid cow, I listen to the fella and now look what happen? Sigh.

Zul, out. Salam

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Great! Thank You Very Much sarcasm